I can’t believe it, my own best friend, betrayed me! She knows how terrible i’ve been the past year! She knows my life went downhill drastically ever since my brother got sick! She knows my depression, she knows my scars, she knows what i do to myself! She was one of the most important people in my life. Besides my boyfr- wait, I guess ex-boyfriend now, my brother and my good friend Harry are most important to me. If anything, I was always better friends with Harry rather than Joanna. I told him everything, except for my depression. I cared about him too much to worry him. He was getting ready to audition for the X Factor anyways, I didn’t want to bother him.
I knew Harry was busy with his vocal practise, so instead of turning to him, like usually do, I went to the hospital to see my brother.
I’ve been there so many times that i didn’t even have to tell the secretary why I was there. “Hey Flo” I said it but by the look on her face, she knew something was wrong. “Hey.. Amy” I could tell that she was trying to find something to console me with, but i left quickly, wanting to avoid conversation.
I entered my brother’s room to a gorgeous head of curls speaking to him. I instantly became nervous, but i have no clue why. I never got nervous around Harry, I was always so comfortable around him. I forced myself to continue walking into the room. “Hi…” i said, actually whispered it because there was a lump in my throat just trying to get out. Harry and my brother, John, saw me but they looked worried. “Hey squirt, what’s wrong?” He always tried to make me laugh, usually succeeding, but not now, instead i broke down into tears.
Partially to my surprise, Harry jolted forward and held me in his ams. “Shh, it’s okay, it’s fine, sh”. I felt safe in his presence. I leaned into him and let my tears flow. For some odd reason, it felt like i was becoming distant. Harry andJohn’s comforting voices were barely audible now. I was losing all feeling in my body. Everything had this weird haze to it, until i just blacked out.
what the hell is going on?! First, I’m comforting Amy, trying to calm down her hysteric crying, nest thing I know, she goes silent and is rushed away! Her and her brother are everything to me. I’ve seen her cry so many times, but this time, it was different. This time it hurt to see her this way. Most times she cried, it was because of Jason. H wasn’t the guy for her. He was an asshole. He was abusive. One Time, Amy came to me with a black eye, low and behold, Jason gave it to her. He thought that she was cheating on him, with me, of all people! I’ve been good friends with Amy ever since we were 4, and neither of us have ever felt that way about each other. But i’m not so sure now.. No, I can’t have feelings for her, it was just sympathy from her crying. Besides, she told me that she loved Jason, and knowing her, she always will.
I can’t stop thinking about what happened. When she fainted, she didn’t get to tell me why she was crying. I swear, if it was Jason, I’m going to kill him! He has hurt her for the last time!
“HARRY?! HARRY?! WHERE’S HARRY?!”
I heard her voice calling my name and ran towards it. I saw her screaming my name, tears strewn across her face. Seeing her like that, I wanted to take all her pain away. But, no matter how much she needs me, I can’t help but wish that I didn’t see it, because now, I’m sure that sympathy was I felt. Amy, what are you doing to me?