It was raining out so when we arrived at the hospital we all made a mad dash trying not to get wet. We were all slipping trying to rush to where ever Danielle was, and we all laughed, but once we arrived outside her room, we suddenly remembered what was happening and got real quiet.
Liam went in and asked that we all stayed outside and wait for a minute. Of course, we listened but we couldn't help but be curious. It felt like time was dragging by, and eventually Harry sat on the floor, so I sat on his lap.
Cuddled in his arms, I didn't feel like anything could possibly go wrong. I closed my eyes for just a moment and before I knew it, I was being shaken awake by Harry.
"Babe! Babe, wake up! We can go in now." I slowly got up and one by one, we eased ourselves into the room. Lying there in the bed was Danielle, who was pale and seemed to be barely living. Liam was sitting by her side, holding her hand, with red puffy eyes, which let me know he was crying.
It felt really awkward just standing there, but none of us were willing to speak up. We were all so petrified with what might happen, we felt more at ease just pretending nothing had really happened. Soon enough, Liam cleared his throat and spoke, his eyes never leaving Danielle's hands.
"There was a complication. They're not sure exactly what happened yet, but the baby sh-" his voice cracked and he stopped for a moment, then continued. "She didn't make it." Silent tears began to fall from his eyes.
I couldn't help myself but to cry, too. I knew how ready Liam had become for this baby. He was actually really excited to become a dad. And know, everything had just been ripped away from him...
We only stayed for about an hour, mostly sitting in silence, and then we made our way home. Liam of cource stayed with Danielle for the night. She could leave in the morning, so he told us we'd see him then. As we drove through the rain, it was just me and Harry in the car, so to keep things from being completely weird, I thought I'd make some small talk.
"Am I going to your place?" It was all I wanted to do that night. Being alone just didn't seem possible.
"Um, yeah. If you want." He seemed a little distant, but I guess he was just still a little upset about the news.
"Yeah, I just don't want to be alone tonight." We pulled over onto the side of the road, nowhere near his flat, and I was so confused. I looked up to see Harry, with tears streaming down his face. I had never really seen him cry, and it just broke my heart.
I opened my mouth to say something, but he cut me off.
"Listen, I don't want you to think I don't want to spend time with you or be with you, but this has just hit me alot harder than I ever imagined. Seeing Liam so hurt, it really hurt me. He's one of my best mates, and I love him. All he wanted was to be a great dad to that little girl, and to think he'll never get the chance is just-" He started crying harder and I grabbed him in a hug. He had such a huge heart, and this was a side of him I never thought I would have to see.
We sat like this for what seemed like hours. Just in eachothers arms, while Harry cried, it was a wonderful yet heartbreaking moment. When Harry got himself together, we drove back to his flat, got inside, and without a word climbed into bed and layed there untill we drifted to sleep.
I was comforted just by his company, but I wasn't sure how long it would take to get past this time. It was a blow that crushed not only Liam, but all the boys. I was scared for them, and as I began to fall to sleep, all I could see was Danielle's almost lifeless body, Liam's red, bloodshot eyes, and Harry, at what had to be his lowest point. My eyes shot open, and I found that I suddenly coudln't sleep, not anymore.