14. But I need you!
Can't get to sleep.. I still feeling shocking...
I decided to text Harry 20 minutes ago.. This is what it said:
I know that you would probably never ever speak to me ever again and you think I am a utter bitch.. But.. I am so sorry about earlier.. I felt terrible.. It was not your fault at all.. I really should have told you I had a boyfriend.. Well.. Not any more.. I have tried to phone Jake and he won't answer his phone and he said it is over between us two.. That's how much of a JURK I have been! I feel terrible.. I am so sorry.. Please forgive me xxx
Still no reply...
Harry text me saying:
I thought I could trust you, and I seriously loved you.. But I don't know how I am ever going to fix my heart back together ever again.
No Kisses! That's how much I have upset him.. Why was I being such an idiot!
I hatted myself so much!
I don't know even how to sum it up any more...
Still can't get to sleep...
I decided to phone Harry..
He didn't pick up..
Tried again.. He picked up..
This was the phone call:
"hello?" I heard a sniffle from the other side of the phone..
"Harry, I am so sorry!" I said to him..
"Harry, I messed up ok.. I love you.." I sobbed out to him..
"I love you to" as he said that I heard the pain in his voice...
This made me feel broken.. "Harry, please forgive me"
No answer.. Just a Sniffle
"Jake broke up with me" I uttered..
"so where does that leave us?"
I didn't know.. But fir some reason the words leaked out of my mouth "I love you Harry! I don't feel right without you.."
He cleared his throat and said "me too but.. I trusted you and you broke that trust..."
"I regret that!" I sobbed.. "just please forgive me.. I want you back!"
"I do to but I can never trust you the same ever again! I'm sorry but no.." he sounded heart broken..
"but I need you!" I pleaded..