“So, are you going to cut the bullshit and tell me what’s going on? ” Louis said, as he gazed curiously at me. I rolled my eyes at him and looked down at my empty ice cream bowl. Great. I was done eating and now he wanted answers… I was so screwed. I had a feeling he knew deep down something was up everytime I talked about Matt and that’s what scared me the most… I didn’t want Louis to suspect a thing. As much as I love him, only Claire could know about this. Louis would probably go absolutely mental and tell Harry… Which is something I really wanted to avoid. I looked around us, Louis and I were the only customers in this dinner but still, just the idea of someone possibly listening to every word that I was saying made me extremely nervous. I mean, Louis was a big popstar now… There could be fangirls hiding everywhere in this place and we wouldn’t even know! Louis cleared his throat loudly which reminded me that he was still there infront of me, waiting for me talk.
“There’s nothing going on, Lou! I’m fine. ” I breathed, trying my best to sound all innocent.
“Alright then, answer this only question and be honest; why are you with Matt? ” Louis crossed his arms, giving me the ‘Go on, I’m listening carefully’ look. I sighed heavily as I ran a hand through my hair… I didn’t like this. I didn’t like lying to his face like that but I had no choice… I had been stupid enough to start this whole thing in the first place and now, I had to deal with it.
“Look, it was hard when I got here. I was sad and depressed but then… Claire happened. And then it was Matt… ” I said as I was looking down at my hands, I was way too nervous to even face him during that little speech.
“I’m not in love with him but… I really care about him and he makes me happy. I just… really needed this. I know maybe that’s not what you wanted to hear but it’s the truth. ” I gulped harshly and looked up to meet Louis’ bright blue eyes. Even if I still felt bad about the whole lying thing, my last words were kind of true in a way. Claire and Matt were the ones who saved me from myself when I got here. Louis smiled sadly at me and reached out to take my hands. We stayed silent for awhile, we were both not really sure of what to say next I suppose.
“What about Harry in all of this..? ” He mumbled just loud enough for me to hear, looking straight into my eyes.
“I want to make things right with him. ” I stated, trying my best not to display any kind of emotion. Louis frowned as he let go of my hands and crossed his arms once again. He didn’t seem too pleased with my answer.
“And how are you going to do that..? ” He asked carefully, like he was keeping himself from screaming.
“I would appreciate being friends with him… After, he forgives me of course but- ” I began but a scoff from Louis stopped me from saying more. I eyed him questioningly as I let out a sigh of annoyance. He was getting mad and I wasn’t surprised. It was Louis after all.
“Friends!? Yeah, right! Good luck with that! ” He laughed bitterly as I frowned at him. I was offended that he’d mock me like that.
“Don’t you think I know that!? He’s been insulting me and pushing me away ever since you all got here! ” I said through gritted teeth, glaring at him.
“It’s not like you don’t deserve it, Skye! ” I stared at him in shock for awhile after these words left his mouth so effortlessly, like he didn’t have a care in the world about me or my feelings in all of this. There was also the fact that Matt said to me the exact same words the day before and it was just two too many for me. I took my purse and got up as quickly as I could. As I was walking towards the door, I could hear Louis from behind, half-screaming me to stay and that he was sorry but I didn’t care, I just kept on walking until I got out of the restaurant. Once I got outside, I realized that I’d have to walk since Louis was my ride but I didn’t care, I’d prefer walking.
Before I could even set a foot away from this place, the door slammed open and Louis grabbed my arm, preventing me from leaving.
“I’m a fucking idiot. I’m sorry I just- ” Louis began but I cut him off before he could say more.
“You’re sorry you said it out-loud, yeah? ” I said bitterly, pushing him off me so that he’d let my arm go.
“No! I just got mad you know how I- ” He began once again but I just didn’t want to hear any of it.
“Don’t! Save it, alright!? Don’t you think I know how much I fucked things up with Harry!? There’s not a day that goes by that I don’t think about how horrible I’ve been to him all this time and anyways… There’s always gonna be someone to remind me of it. ” I gestured to him as I said the word ‘someone’, which made him frown and look down like a sad puppy.
“Fine! Be mad at me all you want but atleast let me drive you home… It’s getting late. ” Louis breathed, visibly disappointed in himself but still, I didn’t want to give in just yet and forgive him. I rolled my eyes and muttered a small ‘Fine’ as I followed him to his car. I know I said before I’d prefer walking but it really was getting late and also cold… I really didn’t have a choice here.
The car ride was short but still really awkward. We both stayed silent, not a word was exchanged and it was alright with me. I really was done with Louis and his temper for the night. The glorious moment finally came and as he parked his car just infront of my house, the dumbass made sure to lock all the doors before the vehicle stopped moving completely. I took a deep breath in attempt to calm myself and exhaled very loudly.
“I’m knackered, alright? Just let me out of here before I- ” I breathed, massaging my temples. I really didn’t want to argue with him again, I just wanted to go to bed and pretend this night never happened.
“Why do you want to make things right with him? ” He simply asked, staring at me intensely, not looking away for a second. I nervously looked down, searching for my words.
“It’s the right thing to do and… Also because I can’t stand the idea of him hating me forever. ” I blurted out. I regretted these words the second they left my mouth. Even if it was completely true, I just wish I hadn’t said it infront of Louis.
“Alright… Just give him some time, I think he’s just scared. ” Louis said, as he looked down for a bit. I scoffed very loudly and even let out a mocking laugh.
“Since when is Harry Styles afraid of anything!? ” I sighed as I ran a hand through my hair and looked at the time on my phone.
“He’s scared of you. ” My head snapped in Louis’ direction. I remained silent even though I actually wanted to say alot.
“He’s scared to let you in again, Skye… You broke his heart, you know… ” It felt like something was stuck in my throat and my eyes were suddenly burning. The last thing I wanted was to cry about Harry infront of Louis so I tried my best to hold back my tears and I cleared my throat loudly.
“I know, Louis. I know that. ” I mumbled as I threw back my phone in my purse and took my keys.
“Are you ever going to let me out or what!? ” I snapped, getting annoyed with the whole situation and also getting really annoyed with myself and how I was getting so emotional over this. Louis sighed in defeat and unlocked the doors. I jumped out of his car and quickly made my way to my house but midway through my front yard, I heard him lower his car window.
“I’m really sorry for how I talked to you earlier… I had no right. ” He half-screamed. I stopped walking and turned around slowly, frowning at him.
“Apology accepted but you’re still a wanker. ” I smiled a little, which made him smile in return.
“Fair enough! ” He replied laughing. I turned around and quickly made my way inside. The second I closed the door behind me, my cellphone went off. I smiled as I saw it was Niall who texted me. ‘hey skye! party @ our place nxt weeknd u better come! x’ A party? Dear lord, here comes the drama again!