I forced a smile as I tried to concentrate on the funny story Niall was telling me but still, my mind kept going back to the fact that Harry was at my house, he was ignoring me and it was absolutely killing me. The boys got to my place around 7PM, they had a long day full of press and even a photoshoot, so they insisted on going relaxing by the pool. And by relaxing, I didn’t know it meant jumping in the pool and splashing water everywhere like idiots but that’s what they did. They also brought alot of beer and most of them were all pissed drunk after only an hour. Liam was actually the only one behaving in all of them and of course, there was Harry… Sitting on his own, far away from all of us, texting non-stop and drinking beer in silence. Louis told me they literally forced him to come and even if I appreciated Louis’ honesty, it obviously didn’t make me feel good to know that. Claire was also here, she was getting a little tipsy and obviously, she was all over Louis. Not that he was complaining, I swear to god I thought he was about to pass out when she came out of my house in that sexy little bikini of hers. My thoughts drifted back to Matt as I cursed him for being late. I wasn’t really sure if I really wanted to make Harry jealous but still, I’d appreciate to have my friend here to support me.
“ Are you even listening to me!? ” Niall laughed, snapping his fingers infront of my face. I was startled at first but I gave in and started laughing along with him.
“ I’m sorry! I’m just kind of… My mind is elsewhere and- ” I mumbled, embarrassed a little.
“ Don’t worry… I know why! ” Niall gave me that ‘I know you’re thinking about Harry’ look that made me roll my eyes. He knew from the start that I had feelings for Harry and he kept it as a secret when I asked him to. I felt bad the moment I saw an hint of sadness in Niall’s eyes though. This brought me back to the night at his place, it was on Christmas eve, he told me that he always had feelings for me but never did anything about it since he knew Harry wanted me. For a split second, I tried to picture if I was with Niall… Maybe things could be easier. Maybe it would work? But in the end… He’s not Harry.
“ No, it’s not that really… I’m just wondering where Matt is! ” I said, forcing a smile that I hoped was convincing enough. Niall narrowed his eyes and opened his mouth to say something but Louis cut him off before he could even make a sound.
“ Yeah, when will we get to meet that boyfriend of yours actually!? ” Louis screamed cheerfully, swimming in my direction as I was sitting on the edge of the pool with Niall. From the corner of my eyes, I saw Harry’s head snapped up and obviously, I couldn’t help but smile. He still cared.
“ He should be here soon, I guess! ” I fake laughed, as I earned a glare from Claire. As a really great actress, she was probably really disappointed in my performance right now. I quickly excused myself as I walked away from the little group to go hide inside for a couple of minutes. Where the fuck was Matt? I was actually now terribly curious to see how Harry would react. I just needed to know if he would get jealous a little because if he did, maybe that’d mean that somehow… There’s still hope that somewhere deep down, he still has feelings for me after all. I grabbed my phone and dialed Matt’s number and luckily for me, he answered right away.
“ Where are you!? ” I said as I looked out the window, looking for any signs of him since Matt was living next door with Claire and their parents. Suddenly, the front door slammed shut and I heard footsteps slowly approaching the kitchen. For a second or two, I was cursing myself for not locking it earlier because it could be a serial killer for all I know but instead, Matt appeared infront of me as I let out a sigh of relief.
“ Sorry for being late… I was stuck at work! ” He replied with a cute smile. Wait… cute? Did I just thought to myself that something about Matt can be cute..? Skye, please, like the very wise Troy Bolton once said, I have to keep my head in the game.
“ C’mon, let’s go outside then! ” Matt said laughing a little, I grabbed his arm and pulled him back as he was reaching for the back door.
“ Wait! I mean, huh, I’ve thought about it and we should practice… something… Before, you know, we have to do it infront of everyone! ” I mumbled really quickly, too embarassed to even look at him in the eyes. It was alot more awkward than I thought it would be.
“ Practice what exactly? ” Matt sighed, still laughing at me. It’s like he was constantly laughing at me, which was a bit insulting if you want me to be honest.
“ Well… The kissing part! I mean, it’s going to be obvious if we share our first kiss infront of them- especially Harry! I mean he has to believe that- ” I was rambling and barely even knew where I was going with this explanation. Before I could even say more, Matt grabbed my face, leaned in and… it happened. Kissing him was odd but… nice. I mean, he wasn’t a bad kisser and Matt is kind of good looking so I have no reason to be repulsed by kissing him so that was kind of… nice. We pulled apart after awhile and then, an heavy awkward silence fell upon us. We just stared at each other, not saying a word and kind of hoping the other would say something first.
“ Maybe we should do it again! ” I blurted out, my brain and my mouth not really agreeing because at the same time, I didn’t want to seem like I wanted to kiss him that much but still, we did need alot more practice.
“ You’re unbelievable! ” Matt sighed, as he grabbed me by the waist and pulled me in for another kiss. This one seemed alot more… comfortable and less awkward. We got a bit carried away as we both used tongue on this one and we also didn’t hear the back door open and someone walking in.
“ I will assume that one’s your boyfriend! ” Louis’ loud voice made us pulled away immediately, as Matt and I shared a guilty look. Matt put a smile on his face and went to introduce himself to Louis as I just stood there, smiling and not saying a thing. As Matt and Louis were casually talking, I stopped breathing as Harry suddenly appeared in the kitchen’s entrance. He glared at me for a second and then, he oddly forced a smile on his face and walked slowly towards Matt.
“ You must be Matt! Skye’s boyfriend, right? ” He said bitterly, which caused Louis to glare at him. I really wanted to pull my hair out because of all the tension in the room but thank the gods for Matt because he just acted like everything was absolutely fine.
“ Yeah man! That’s me! It’s really nice to meet you. ” Matt said with a huge smile on his face. Harry nodded with an obvious fake smile on his face.
“ If you’ll excuse me, I have to go talk to my sister! ” Matt said and just before disappearing into the back yard, he left a quick kiss on my lips. For a second, I thought I was done with the awkward moments for tonight but no; Louis took the opportunity to ran to the bathroom… Leaving me alone with Harry in the kitchen.
“ Do you want more beer? I think I have some in the basement and- ” I asked with an hopeful smile on my lips but before I could even begin to believe that Harry and I could actually share a civilized conversation, he cut me off, looking more pissed off than ever.
“ Please stop trying so hard to be nice! ” He screamed, glaring at me.
“ I’m just trying to make things right for fuck sakes! ” Now it was my turn to scream.
“ Well, just stop. I don’t want to hear any of it. ” He scoffed, walking off. I sighed heavily and considered letting him go but I decided that I didn’t want to be weak. I let him walk all over me when he called me a whore but it was definitely the last time. I catched up to him, grabbed his arm and spun him around so he had no other choice but to face me.
“ Look, I know you hate me, alright!? I’m not asking you to forget what I did but… I just really want to make sure that you know how sorry I am. ” I gulped harshly, looking at him warily, waiting for him to say something.
“ Well, maybe you being sorry is not enough. ” He said on a low voice, staring intensely into my eyes.
“ What else do you want me to say then? ” A hint of emotion was obvious in my voice but our little moment was over the second Louis stepped into the kitchen again.
“ I’m interrupting something, aren’t I? ” Louis said with a mischievous smile on his face.
“ Not really… ” Harry mumbled as he walked off, leaving me alone with Louis.
The rest of the night went by quickly. Everyone was drinking and having fun in the pool, while, of course, Liam was making sure the more intoxicated people were not doing anything stupid. Harry was obviously only talking to the boys but still, he looked like he enjoyed himself atleast. Matt was by my side the whole time, telling me that Harry would come around eventually. For a fake boyfriend, he really was a good friend after all. I had to give him that. We shared a few kisses, you know, for the sake of the ‘spectacle’. I could also swear I caught Harry staring at us 2 or 3 times while we were kissing. He seemed mad and well… jealous. At first, that’s really what I wanted to see. But now, I wasn’t really sure if it actually made me feel any better… He obviously didn’t want anything to do with me so what could it possibly do that he was jealous of Matt or not? Well, anyways, he believed I had a boyfriend so, he thinks I’m happy without him and that’s all I really wanted all along… Even if it’s the complete opposite. I finished my beer in one big gulp and sighed very loudly as I cursed Harry Styles for making me fall in love with him in the first place.