I felt ridiculously happy that morning and obviously, Harry was the reason why. I woke up around 10AM and I successfully escaped Harry’s room to go take a shower without waking him up which I was very thrilled about. But anyways, he was so hammered the night before that I’m pretty sure I could have screamed bloody murder in his face and he wouldn’t even have moved at all. Anyways, after a long and hot shower, I took my time to pick a really cute outfit because I was in a good mood and basically, I wanted to look good… Well, to be more specific, I wanted Harry to look at me that day and think ‘Oh, she looks good.’ I know that some of the things we said the night before were not that big of a deal but I was really happy about the progress we made, that’s all. Although, there was this little voice in the back of my mind telling me that Harry could also decide to change his mind completely and go back to being rude and mean but I decided to ignore it since I didn’t want anything to come and ruin my blissful mood. I put on a short floral dress and a grey cardigan since I didn’t want to look like I tried too hard either. I looked great but just casual enough. I put on a bit of makeup and just as I finished applying my eyeliner, there was a soft knock on my door. I put away my beauty accessories as I went to open the door. I was pleased to meet a tired-looking Harry who had a small smile on his face. He was smiling. That was definitely a good sign, right?
“Hey… Can we talk for a sec? ” He croaked out, his voice probably sore because of last night. I nodded eagerly as I stepped to the side to let him inside my bedroom. He looked around for a bit, not saying a word, just looking around the room with his hands in his pockets.
“Look, I’m sorry about last night I was- ” I tried my best not to show it but I started to panic a bit on the inside. What if he was about to tell me he regretted everything that he said and that he wanted to go back to how things were? What if he didn’t want to make things right, now that he was sober?
“You don’t have to apologize, Harry. ” I said quickly, forcing a sweet smile. He stepped closer to me, his smile still intact.
“Yeah, I do. I was drunk and I acted like a twat but still… What I said after, in my bedroom, I meant it though… But still, I’m sorry about what happened before that. ” I felt like my heart was about to burst out of my chest and explode right there infront of me. His eyes lit up at the sight of a genuine smile forming onto my face.
“You took care of me when I was completely plastered the other day at your place… Now, I guess that makes us even. ” At this point, I wasn’t even able to stop smiling because everything felt finally alot better between us and it’s all I wanted. Okay, well, I would also love to jump on him and have wonderful and passionate sex with him all day long but I don’t think that would be such a great idea.
“Alright, then. ” Harry chuckled, his adorable dimples showing more than ever which made me squeal internally like an idiot.
“So, about what you said last night… Saying you want to make things right… That you want to be friends basically, yeah? ” He said after a considerably long silence. He was still smiling but I saw in his eyes that this whole ‘being friends’ idea was disappointing to him a little bit since he wanted more from me… Just like I did but still, even though I am and always will be completely in love with him, I’m not good for him. He deserves alot better than me and just friends is… perfect. Yes, it’s perfect… I suppose.
“Yeah, I’d like that. I just want us to stop fighting and I don’t know… Try to be friends, atleast? ” I said, my eyes full of hope even though this whole idea was all very bittersweet. Harry nodded but his smile didn’t reach his eyes. He wanted more, just like I did but… Everything was way too complicated now for us to just do what we really wanted to do.
“Alright, deal! So… Friends? ” He said in a low voice as I tried my best to keep smiling. I knew I was completely stupid to be sad about this just now since I was thrilled about all of this earlier but… Now it all began to sink in that we were going to be just friends and also that I was stuck in a fake relationship with my friend and… It was all very confusing for me and my feelings; once again.
“Friends it is! ” I sighed as my smile started to slowly drift away. Suddenly, there was a second knock on my door. I gave Harry a confused look before turning around to flung the door wide open. I was surprised to find my best friend right there; all smiles and gorgeous as always. She was hugging me tightly like a mad woman before I had the time to say anything. This is when I remembered that she flew in a couple of hours ago but of course, I forgot all about it since everything that happened with Harry the night before.
“Good morning to you, my dear friend! ” Claire said in a weird british accent. She always did that to mock me but somehow, it always made me laugh.
“Hey! When did you get here!? ” I said laughing along with her.
“I got here around 5 AM and I just got up. I’m exhausted if you want me to be honest but wait- ” Claire stopped talking as she eyed Harry suspiciously.
“Did I interrupt something or..? ” She said with a smirk as my eyes widened at her words. She wasn’t supposed to look so terribly happy about me possibly flirting or whatever with Harry. I was apparently dating her brother but seems like she forgot about that. I turned around to smile quickly to Harry, who seemed a bit shy about Claire’s remark.
“Harry and I are friends now. It’s all good. Yeah… it’s all good. ” I mumbled, like I was trying to convince myself.
“Yeah… I’m gonna leave you two to… whatever this is. I’ll see you guys later! ” Harry said quickly as he escaped from this awkward situation. But before he disappeared, I caught a glimpse of him winking at me.
The rest of the weekend went by quickly but nicely too if I may add. We all went swimming in the lake behind the cabin during our last night there and we all just had alot of fun. The boys all noticed Harry and I getting along and obviously; nobody was complaining. Of course, I did not spend all of my time by his side but slowly and surely, we talked more and things were getting better. It was exactly what I wanted but somehow, it felt like something was missing. Deep down I knew what it was but I was simply too stubborn to admit it. Let’s change the subject and discuss how Claire and Louis literally spent the weekend all over each other. I was happy for both of them but I just hoped Claire knew what she was doing since he was only here for the summer… Which meant that he’d be gone in like a month and a half. Though I have to admit that I didn’t like to think about that very much since it meant Harry would be leaving soon too and I wasn’t really looking forward to that. Something that I was kind of looking forward to however was the boys’s concert at The House of Blues the week after our little weekend at the cabin. Do you know what was so great about that concert? Harry was the one who invited me to come. He even said I could be backstage with them and everything. I swear to god, when he asked me to come, we were in the car after our trip to New York, I literally had to held back my screams of joy. Unfortunately, this is when I got home that day that I realized that maybe that wasn’t such a good idea after all… I mean, I really wanted to go but what if they decided to go out for a drink after the concert and well… Let’s just say that me, Harry and alcohol equals very bad things so I decided to ask a very good friend of mine a favor… again.
“Hello you! How are you on this fine day? ” I asked Matt with a big smile as he opened the front door after my oh-so many frantic knocks.
“Okay, what do you want now? ” Matt said with an amused expression on his face.
“Would you like to be my date to a One Direction concert next tuesday..? ” I said my eyes full of hope but strangely, deep down, I hoped he would say no so that in that way, I would be able to go alone and do whatever I wanted to do with Harry… Even though it was completely wrong.