I knew I had just put myself in a very strange position but it was something I needed to do. The boys’ fans were going to blame me from now on but it was better than them being mad at Harry. Now that the somewhat truth was out, I felt much better. The taxi ride back to my house was long but I was thankful for it, I needed time to think and to be alone. I stared blankly out of the window at my left the whole time, the sun was shining and the beach was beautiful but I was too distracted to even focus on the beauty that was just by my side. I knew I had done the right thing for Harry and the boys but I mean, what if they’d get mad at me for doing that since I did it behind their backs and also without asking first? Ah, so many questions and so many things to stress over.
I paid the cab driver and got out quickly. My purse in one hand and my keys in the other, I was startled to find a way-too-familiar pair of green eyes staring back at me.
“Perez Hilton? Really? Out of everyone you could have gone to, you picked him? ” His husky voice and the ghost of a smile on his face made me feel a bit better. I was scared that he’d be angry with me.
“He’s a very popular blogger and… I wanted everyone to know the truth, Harry. I’m sorry though… I should have told you before but there was no time and- ” I was rambling and I was nervous so when Harry stopped me from saying more, I was kind of relieved.
“I’m not mad, alright? I wanted to thank you actually. Even if I think that was a stupid idea but yeah, thank you. ” His amused tone took me by surprise. I expected him to be angry and/or upset about me going to open up about everything to Perez Hilton but he was strangely very calm and nice about this.
“Yes, that was maybe stupid of me to do but now your fans will know the truth. ” I exclaimed as I found the strenght to start walking again. Harry followed close behind as I made my way to the front door. Ah, Harry waiting for me on my front porch to come home, it seemed all a bit too much of a deja vu for me but it was kinda nice in a certain way.
“So you really meant what you said in that interview then? ” Harry’s smirk got me smiling like an idiot.
“Well, I’m not innocent in all of this and I lead you on… It’s my fault. All of it. ” Harry frowned as he noticed that my smiled faded quickly. I sighed heavily as I unlocked the door and stepped inside. Harry closed the door behind us as I lazily took off my shoes.
“It’s also my fault, Skye. It’s not all on you. ” Harry mumbled, hands in his pockets and his eyes full of what I assume was guilt.
“Are we still talking about what happened backstage at the concert or this has to do with things between us in general because I can’t tell..? ” I asked carefully. Harry looked down at his feet and didn’t say a thing. His silence meant everything. In that moment, I realized I was right.
“Since we’re both behaving like adults for once, I’m gonna go ahead and say it too, I guess… ” I said as I ran a hand through my hair and anxiously gazed at Harry.
“I’m sorry. ” The small sentence came out as a whisper. It was a hard thing for me to do, apologize I mean. But out of all people, Harry was definitely the one who deserved my apologies.
“I’m sorry about everything I’ve said or done that has somehow ended up hurting you in the past two and a half years. ” I gulped harshly after these difficult words left my mouth. Harry finally looked up at me and stared for the longest time without saying anything. I was on the verge of losing hope of ever getting an actual response when he opened his mouth once again.
“Why did you do it? Why did you take the blame? You didn’t have to do it. ” His tone and question was very serious but somehow I couldn’t help but grin.
“Oh, Harry Styles… You’re pretty but you can be really dumb when you want to, did you know that? ” I teased as I turned around to go in the kitchen. I was pouring myself a glass of water when he finally decided to join me.
“Can’t you just give me a serious answer, please? ” He breathed out with an hopeful smile.
“Alright, fine! ” I exclaimed in defeat. “ It might surprise you because you always seem to think otherwise but I did it for you. ” I avoided eye contact as I took a refreshing gulp of water.
“And why did you do this for me..? ” Harry looked at me with his eyes full of anticipation. I knew what he wanted me to say but I couldn’t. It was no use because being with him wasn’t an option anymore. I wasn’t good for him even though I loved him with all of my heart.
“Because I- ” I simply did not know what to say to him. The L word was forbidden in my book obviously and any sort of love declaration was too much for me to deal with. “ Because I care about you but you should know that by now anyway… ” I mumbled, still avoiding his intense gaze.
“Alright… So where does this leave us? ” Harry asked. I finally looked up at him and noticed how confused he seemed. I couldn’t blame him, things were so complicated and he probably thought I had all the answers. Unfortunately for him, I was just as confused and lost as he was.
“I don’t have a fucking clue, honestly. ” I replied with a lazy smile. I stopped breathing the second he started to make his way closer to me. We both stared in each other’s eyes as he kept moving closer and we stayed silent, it’s like we knew what was going to happen and both of us didn’t want to stop it.
“And now this time I’m going to ask you first… ” He whispered, his lips brushing against mine. I sucked in a deep breath as I realized how close he was now. “ Can I kiss you? ” I nodded slowly and I didn’t have to tell him twice. My eyes fluttered shut as our lips met. The familiar taste and feel of his lips had me smiling through the kiss. We both seemed shy at the beginning but quickly enough, our kiss turned into something alot more torrid and passionate. His tongue teased my bottom lip, asking for entrance. Back then on the night of the concert, this is where I panicked and pushed him away but not this time. I wanted this so much even though it was wrong. I only wanted to enjoy hips lips on mine for a little while. I mindlessly let him kiss me some more even though deep down I knew it was wrong. I missed it so much though. The taste of his lips and also the way he’d bury his hands into my hair as he pulled me closer to him. It felt so right but yet so wrong. I broke the kiss when Harry’s ringtone took me by surprise.
He mumbled some sort of apology as he reached down his pocket for his iPhone. He texted back the person who cockblocked us and looked back up to me with that damn annoying and beautiful smile of his.
“Sorry about that. So, where were we? ” He smiled, leaning in to kiss me again but I turned my head before he could reach my lips.
“We can’t keep doing this. You can’t kiss me again. ” I sighed with a small smile on my face, my hands on his chest to prevent him from getting closer to me.
“Why not? ” He pouted as he nuzzled my nose in the most adorable way ever. I rolled my eyes as I pushed him away playfully, I drank some more water before answering him.
“I know you’re probably not used to this since the entire teenage female population wanna get into your pants but- ”
“Excuse me but I’m not some floozy, miss! ” Harry cut me off, laughing rather loudly. I laughed along with him as I punched his right shoulder in a friendly way. Harry’s laughter quickly died down and he cleared his throat before sharing with me the unhappy thoughts that made him stop laughing.
“Is it about Matt..? ” I looked down in shame as I realised I had completely forgot about Matt in all of this. Yeah, that’s right, Harry thought I was still with him.
“I’m going to break up with him, if that’s what you want to know. ” I blurted out, not really thinking before I said it. He stayed silent for the longest time before a smile found it’s way onto his face.
“Alright, I should probably go. The guys are waiting for me back at the house so… ” He grinned like an idiot. I had no idea why he was so pleased but I just went along with it.
“Tell them I’m sorry for the whole Perez Hilton thing but yeah, I hope it’ll help you guys. ” He smiled widely and pulled me into a tight hug. I wish it could have laster longer but before I knew it, he stepped away and started to make his way to the front door. I sighed and followed him, even though I was sad to see him go already.
“I’m sorry again for what happened at the concert and everything… ” Harry said as I opened the door for him.
“I know you are and I’m sorry too again by the way… For everything. ” My two last words meant alot more than just what happened that night at the concert and I hoped he understood that.
“Yeah, I know. I believe you. ” A wave of relief washed over me and left my insides tingle like a pathetic schoolgirl. It was great to see Harry believe in my apologies for once.
“And also, I’d like to remind you that you kissed me back again today. ” He smugly said with a satisfied smile on his stupid face. I gasped and opened my mouth to reply something witty back but nothing came out. After that, everything happened so fast I didn’t even had the chance to stop him before he leaned down and kissed me once again. My urges took over and I kissed him back like a fool without really thinking. After he broke the kiss, he backed away with his excruciating smug smile of his that unfortunately, made me smile in return.
“Oh look, you kissed me back again! ” He said in a sing-song voice as he walked out of the door.
“You’re an idiot and I hate you! ” I laughed as I watched him walk away. He turned around with the biggest smile on his face. His adorable dimples showing more than ever.
“No, you don’t. ” He winked, visibly pleased with himself. I kept my mouth shut because he was completely right and I was too breathless to even think about saying anything else. He knew now that I did this interview for him, he was no fool, he knew I did it for him… Which could also make things more difficult now that he keeps kissing me and that he knows I care about him. But oh well, when are things not difficult in my life anyway?