True Events: (LukeJR Breakdown)
Morning begins, I find myself with an ex-girlfriend . . .
She is asking to be my friend.
I told her that I can’t just keep going back and forth
She told me that I need to seek medical attention
But fuck it, I don’t need it, she can’t tell me what to do
She is my ex-girlfriend, and I’m with you
Afternoon soon hits us, I’m off to the family house
Where they find that I’ve been up to no good
A smirk from me, and they know instantly…
That I’m just as villainous as can be,
And what an illness you will see,
If you look past the face and the tree
I left her behind back at some hotel
Didn’t need her anyway
And I could’ve just left her without saying goodbye
But I told her that I’d be back for another day
And I could be lying again, but that don’t change anything, anything
Yeah, she could’ve been this great bundle for free
But I loved her as can be, showing her my heart was heartless
My love only grew more when I was in pieces
Back at the family home (I drink a lot) (I drink so much too much)
Back at the family home (I make them groan, I drink alone)
Back at the family home (I… had… nothing… to… eat…)
Back at the family home (I just kept on drinking, watching everything change)
Back at the family home, home,
Back at the family home, home.
Night soon rises up with the moon light holding me up again,
I feel the tension within me, and I hold onto the wall like its holding onto me
And every time I feel a little dizzy… I hold onto the wall hoping it won’t hurt me
Liars can tell me what they want, and my dreams become a blur with reality.
I start to hallucinate that my mind is stuck in a frozen state,
Where everything changes… with people dancing, hardly moving
And I see them, with their faces laughing in freedom, what a fuck-races
I don’t know what to say, I drink a lot, and I still don’t seem to go grey
I don’t know what to say, I drink so much, my body don’t seem to give away
I even watched the room spin out of control, my body just collapsed on the floor
The wall held me up, I fell to the side, feeling limp and barely moving I went outside
I said ‘I need fresh air’ but it was lie, I just wanted to get away and die.
The drunk state tells me that I’m in tears, but my mind seems to make it all clear
My arms give in to the drunk-ness, and my body falls to the side of this drunk-ness
I collapsed on the ground, the steps outside, nobody finds me until later…
They laugh at me, they think ‘1-2-3’ drinks are all I had, but ha, ha, they were BAD
Seriously, I had much more, my body was giving into something… ALL
Ha, Ha, you think I’m crazy? Well, I drink a lot, and I watch the clock go by
Ticking on and off through the night, nobody cares you see
My second cousin laughed at me.
They all think I’m crazy… ‘Drunk’
‘ you’re drunk ‘ – so wrong, I had a few not even much
My real problem was the fact I didn’t eat anything for 24 hours!
Yeah, don’t ask me how it happened, but my body was full of acids
I fell to the side hoping they’d call an Ambulance
Nope, they thought I was drunk, sent me into tears again
And I’m alone again, with all these thoughts on my mind
Without the help that I tried to find…
My plan didn’t work, my mind lied to me
My family home is finally free . . .