The car ride was kind of quiet. I didn't do much other than contemplate how Harry and I's arugement were to play out. I had multiple scenarios, all ended the same. Us not getting back together except for infront of the camera.
I really didn't want that to happen. I really did care about Harry as more than a friend and I don't think that'll ever change. I just hope he feels the same with me.
My phone started buzzing and lighting up in the cupholder and since I was at a red light, I picked it up. Darcy was calling me. "Hello?"
"Rue! You haven't texted or called and I was getting worried!"
I sighed into the phone. "Yeah, things have just been crazy back here."
"Well, you remember Petar?"
"Well, I went over to his house last night after I told Harry I didn't fully love him yet and asked if we could slow down and we had a fight and then when Petar and I were walking around he kissed me and Harry saw. I spoke with Harry this morning, he fell asleep outside of my door. I think we're okay now but we're going to talk more later. I told him I was going to go to the gym down here to think and he said he would come. Right now I'm going to get us coffee so he can get ready. I don't know why I said it. I really don't. I just got comfortable and it blurted out."
"Oh Rue.... You really know how to ruin vacations for some people!"
I laughed a bit. "I know. What do I do Darc?"
"I know your favorite movie is Pocahontas. Do what Grandmother Willow would tell you. 'Listen to your heart, you will understand.'"
Our conversation carried on for about twenty more minutes. I hung up with her when I arrived back at my home. I grabbed my phone and texted Harry that I was here and dredded the talk Harry and I were bound to have within the next thirty minutes.
The front door opened and Harry came bouncing down the front steps smiling at me as he looked into the front window of the car. I gave him a smile back. He hopped in the car and leaned over to give me a kiss on the cheeck. I was surprised by this because I didn't think he'd want to do that just yet. "Morning, love. Which one's mine?"
Still confused by his affection, I replied "umm, it's that one..."
"Alright, how far is the drive?" He asked with a smile plastered on his face while grabbing his coffee and taking a sip.
"Not too far... ten minutes at the most."
"Excellent! Just enough time!"
'Great. Here we go!' I thought silently to myself. "Shall I start or you?" he asked.
"You can because I really don't know what more to say."
He nodded his head. "Well, I just want to know why you thought we were going too fast when you were the one who said 'I love you' first. Can you just explain that to me? Please?"
I put the car in drive and pulled out of the park position in my drive way. "I really do love you. I don't regret saying I did. I'm just a messed up person. I have a lot of insecurities and walls built around me. It scared me that you almost tore away all of them. I just want things to go back to the way it use to be. I had a night full of word vomit that I wish didn't happen, but what can I do now? I'm not a time lord. I can't time travel and take it back. I'm sorry, I wish I didn't say it. But you should know I say a lot of shit I don't mean to say. Can we just pretend this didn't happen?"
Harrys hand moved over to mine and took it in its grip. I stole a glance from the corner pf my eyes and saw him smiling. "Yeah, lets just pretend it never happened. Are we okay now?"
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