"I don't think we should take that road just yet, Harry."
His face dropped and his hands let go of mine. Heart break was written on his easily readable face. My heart broke into a million pieces. I never knew my words could ever hurt someone that much.
"I'm sorry. It's just... I mean... You saw what happened in that hall way! I don't want that to be us one day! I don't want to be telling you to leave me alone and that I hate you because that's the very opposite of what I want. Can we just keep doing what we're doing and in a few months we can decide and then everything will be perfect until our time is up!" I say, basically in tears. I grab for his hands, which, for the first time, he pulls away from me.
"No, Rue! You can't just lead me on like that! What about me? I'm in this too, you know. It's not just you in this. I'd never do what he did to you. You're just scared because you feel something too. Stop thinking about that damn year and just do what you want! They can't tell us when to date and when not to, it's our lives and we do what WE want with it. It's now or never, Rue. It's yes or no. Right now."
I looked down at my feet, not really sure of what to say now. He was right. He was entirely right, and I knew it. Everything he said was true. I was scared. And that's the thing that was holding me back. "Harry, I need time to think about this. I think you should leave for a little bit. Until we have to go up to Holmes Chapel. If you let me really think it over then when it's just you and I, other than the car rides, I'll tell you. Just give me a day or two to think about this. Okay?"
Harry nodded his head, kissed me on the check, and left. The second he left I wanted to call him back in and just say yes a thousand times, but I knew I couldn't do that now. Instead, for the first time in a long time, I just sank to my bed and cried.