22. I need you to trust me
We all decided to go to bed since we had to get up and tend to Lucy well I did anyway. I was sitting on the bed thinking of Harry and I and the wedding and a sudden wave of sadness washed over me. "Hey baby whats wrong? you look like you just saw some one die" I chuckled a bit at this thought. "Its just that every guy that I have been with has left me and that they claimed that they loved me and they left me" I had started crying at this piont. "Baby I am not going to leave you I promise I mean it when I say that I love you" I knew that he ment it i just thought that he would leave me like every one else. There is something that no one knows about me something I have never told anyone before. " I know you do but you dont understand me when I say this but there is some thing that you dont know about me and I have never told anyone about this not even Jenn." I turn my head in shame at what was going to come out of my mouth next. "What is it Candy you can tell me anything you know that there is no judgement between us and you know that" He had a small shiny tear gleaming on his cheek. "Harry the night I was rapped I didnt go to the cops I didnt do anything for a while I layed in that ally in so much pain it was unbearable pain a pain that I never wanted to experiance again. I finally had gotten all the strength I could and I got up I walk to a place I used to go as a kid when I was about 12 or 13 to get away from my dad and everything else in my life" I turned to him them to see his face covered in hot tears. "Candy you know that I wi-" I cut him off. "I went to this place I called it the forget everything flat. It was a Flat on the bad side of london and I would go there to drink and " I choked on this last part because I wanted to cry and scream but I held it in. " I would go there to drink and get high to get away from all of my fear and worrys " I was holding my arms almost hugging my self because I could remember how good it felt to forget every thing when I put that needle in my arm and everything just fluttered away as if nothing mattered. "Candy I never tought I would here you say anything like that in my life" "Yeah and now that I have said it you dont love me anymore and you dont want to marry me anymore right " I tuned away getting up to walk to the door. "No Candy I still love you I dont care about the mistakes you have made in the past they are in the past now they dont matter any more all that matters is that IO love you and you love me and that we are goping to spend the rest of our lives together you me and Lucy" He got closer and he wrapped me in a hug and I cried as ahrd as I could I just sobbed in his chest until I had no tears left to cry I had nothing left to cry. "Harry I love you but right now I need you to trust me I need you to stay here I need to go do something I have to get something off of my chest I dotn want you to come with me and I dont want you to come find me I will call you when I am done so that you can coem get me but I just need to know that you trust me enought to let me do this one thing " I looked into his eyes and all I could see was shock and worry "Candy I dont want you to get hurt I cant let you go to wherever you are going alone I jus-" I cut him off once again "Harry I need you to trust me I need you to let me do this" With that I let him speak "I cant promose that I wont worry but I am trusting you that you wont gop out and do anything iorrashinal" "I love you I will call you when I need you to come pick me up okay" With that I grabbed my jacket and my phone and a little bit of money and went out the door.
(OOOH GUYS WHERE DO YOU THINK SHE IS GOING AND WHAT DO YOU THINK IS GOING TO HAPPEN WHEN SHE GETS THERE I LOVE SUSPENCE DONT YOU TRUST ME YOU WONT KNOW WHAT IS GOING TO HAPPEN I PROMISE AND I HOPE YOU LIKE THIS STORY AND IF YOU DO YOU SHOULD CHECK OUT MY OTHER STORY THAT I HAVE RECENTLY PUBLISHED ITS CALLED its a secret<3)