24. I am sorry
I grabbed my stuff and went out the door and headed to the bus station. I got on the local bus to go to that flat where I had gotten high or drunk when I was a kid. I sat there hoping that Harry wasnt mad at me I loved him so much but this is something that I had to do for me. I got off the bus and made my way up to the flat number 23. I was hesitant at first but knocked. "Hello who is it?" "Hey Jake its Candy I need you to let me in okay" I was almost shouting now because I wasnt sure if he could hear me or not but apparently he could because the door swung open. "Hey Candy long time no see how have you been?" He had never been that great at small talk from what I can remember. "I have been good I have a little girl and I am engadged to be married" " thats great I am glad you have found someone who treats you nice" I was lkistening to what he said but I couldnt keep focus all I could think about was Lucy I felt like I shouildnt be here, I felt like I was betraying HArry and everyone who loves me or anyone who has ever help me get out of the mess I am about to put my self back into. "So I am guessing that you want the usuall?" Jake asked " Actually no I am sorry but it was a mistake to come here I have a daughter and A soon to be husband who loves me" By that point I was crying "So your just gunna leave because of some guy ? Thats cool I have alwasy known that you were a slut" He shouted as I ran out the door and towards the cemetary to where my mothere is burried. I sat in front of the stone and cried. "Mom I am sorry for everything that I have dont wrong and I am sorry that you had to leave this earth so soon I wish I could have done something to make you stay just a little bit longer I love you" I said this but when I said I love you it was almost like someone had said that part with me. I turened around to see Harry. "Hey I know you probably didnt want me to follow you but I had to make sure that you were okay and that you werent going to be taken advantage of" I didnt care that he followed me I was actually glad. "I am not mad that you followed me I am actually glad you did I am sorry I ran out after telling you that but I had to clear my head and I am sorry that I am sucha bad mother" "You are not a bad mother dont ever say that you are the best mother That Lucy could have ever asked for, and dont be sorry for leaving I knew you needed some time and I love you" "I love you too lets go home" I said and he picked me up and carried me to the car. And with that I had fallen alseep in the car on the ride home.