7. Forgive me?
I saw it. They kissed. I saw the whole thing. How could Jess do this to me? Let alone why would zayn do this to me. I was sobbing in my pillow. I was trying to think of possible reasons why this would happen. Maybe they are just really close friends. Maybe he leaned in to kiss her and she couldnt back away because of her condition. Or maybe she lied to me. Hopefully it isnt that reason. I heard Zayn slam the door to his room and Jessica slam the door to the bathroom. Something is wrong here. I got up and opened my door. I knocked on Zayns door. "Its open mate" he said. I walked in and saw tears all over his face. This was the first time ive seen him cry. "She didnt kiss me. I kissed her." Was all he said. I knew it. She wouldnt do this to me. "Wh-why though mate?" I asked. "well we were all alone and i asked if we could talk. I started talking about how beautiful she was and how i had feelings for her" my fists started bunching up and i was really trying to resist punching him. "She told me that she loved you and me both, but not the same way" he continued "she completely rejected me" "Well i fucking hope so! Shes mine! why would you KISS her mate?!" I stood up. "I DONT KNOW IT WAS THE FIRST THING I THOUGHT OF OKAY?!" i sarted getting really angry. "look mate i know you like her. but shes mine. im sorry but you know," i said "i understand. sorry mate" he gave me a tight hug. "go get her" he said. I quickly got up and ran across the hall to the bathroom. I knocked. Then i opened the door. Jessica was laying on the floor. "You hate me dont you?" she asked. "Baby i talked to zayn" I said. "i know what happened and its not your fault. Please dont blame yourself.'' "Im sorry. I probably could have done something to prevent it" I didnt say anything. I layed down and kissed her. "Forgive me?" she asked. "But theres nothing to forgive" I said and kissed her again.