Its been 1month since Harry's been on tour. I miss him , we don't even go out but i do miss him , i miss them all. On the outside i look fine but in the inside i'm dying. I don't like people seeing i'm sad. Waking up knowing he's not going to be there to make us all laugh is sad. The fun times we would have. Nicole's really not herself lately. shes been getting a lot of hate lately, just for being in pictures with them. It's really not fair. I'm getting hate to , but i can take it, i just have fun with it.
I was sitting in the living room when Nicole came down stairs to watch t.v with me. The Vow was on one of her favorite movies was on. She ran into the kitchen and grabbed the popcorn and sat next to me scoffing her face with popcorn.
I miss pearl. I miss seeing her beautiful face everyday. Her hugs everyday. I cant wait to see her and give her a massive hug. I'm starting to fall for her, she's one of the best things that's ever happened to me.we all miss them.
I bet the house is clean i said looking over to Louis who was sitting on the couch looking at me.
Yeah without all your shit everywhere harry
we both laughed.
wheres Niall i ask Liam who was in the kitchen making something for dinner.
Um i think he's out again Liam said looking back into the living room
oh okay , do you know when he'll be back Zayn yelled from the couch ,
um nah sorry mate Liam said still poking his head out the kitchen door.
who's he with Zayn said curiously looking up from the couch.
He didn't say , all he said is he's going out for a bit and for us not to wait up Louis said looking at his phone screen.
i didn't think much of it so i got up and had a shower.
Its been really hard without Niall being here, waking up to him in my bed, his hugs , kisses and much more. Every time he call's i tear up when we say bye. We've Skyped a few time's but its not the same. Louis and zayn we always being diddles in the background. Harry would be skyping Pearl at the same time. 5 months to go id say to myself every morning.
Everyday id get more and more hate, it hurt so much getting hate. Id always be the person who gets more hurt by it. Pearl doesn't care much that she gets hate, she has fun with it.
One tweet really got me...
" Your so ugly i don't know what Niall see's in you, your fat and you deserve to die, Ugly slut "
I slammed the laptop shut and ran into the bathroom and locked the door. I looked into the mirror and looked at my refection.
ran through my mind. I opened the draw and pulled out a knife. I dropped the knife and slip down to the ground crying. I had panda eyes so i jumped in the shower.
I stood under the hot water for ages, letting it massage my back.
I got out of the shower and wrapped myself in a towel. I looked in the mirror again,
Hello again i said looking at myself,
I'm not good enough for him
with that i grabbed the knife and placed it against my arm. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath.
NICOLE! WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING!!!!!
Pearl yelled from the door way with tear's in her eyes. I quickly dropped the knife and slid down the wall. Pearl came running over to me and wrapped both her arms around me.
We sat there for about an hour just being together.
She pulled me up and chucked some clothes at me. We had the same style so she knew actually what i would wear. She chucked me some light blue slightly ripped high waster jeans, my white button up polyester sleeveless top and my white heels.
Where are we going i said sitting in the front seat of the car.
you'll have to find out she said looking at me with a cheeky grin on her face.
we pulled up at a ice cream parlor,
yum my fav i said jumping out of the car.
we ran into the shop and run up to the lady serving the ice creams.
Hello , what can i get you today she asked looking at Pearl, she looked at us funny like she knew us.
um i'll have pure passion please she said smiling at the lady.
Then she looked at me , and for you she asked
um yeah i'll have ,,, i looked around and pointed at the hokey pokey tub
she smiled at me and scooped our ice creams in cones and handed them to us. We went over and pained for them. I handed over my card and the lady took it and looked at me then my name on my card.
I payed for the ice creams and the lady handed over my card. She gave me the dirtiest look ever as we walked out.
Gee what was up her ass Pearl said looking at me, i shrugged me shoulders and laughed.
We got back in the car and drove back home.
When we got inside i grabbed my laptop and went on twitter lots of hate as normal. I clicked on a few picture on my time line and read a lots of the tweets. I clicked on this one Photo and my heart sank. Tears fell from my eyes and hit the laptop pad.
I ran up stairs and started packing my suitcase, tears pouring from my eyes. I packed most of my clothes and sat on my bed crying. Pearl came running up the stairs and sat next to me.
Whats going on? where are you going?
I looked up at her, the only thing i could get out was "Home"
she looked at me with synthetic eyes and went into her room. I picked up my phone and dialed Niall's number. it rang for ages before he picked up.
Um hello a voice said coming from his side of the phone
i didn't know who the person was who answered but i know it wasn't him.
Who's this i said sobbing.
Um it's Demi , who's this she said in a bitchy voice
with that i threw the phone at the ground and screamed.
Pearl came back in my room with her suit case packed and she grabbed my hand and pulled me up. We took our bags to the car and drove to the airport. We booked our tickets and board the plane.
Pearl didn't ask what the phone call was about or what was on the laptop that made me pack my bags, she just understood.
We arrived in New York later the next day. We weren't staying her for that long as this is where the boys are. We quickly boarded our next plan without looking back.