The only words that were able to come out of his mouth was a broken "Jess". We stood there with Dani holding Ali and Jessica practically sleeping on her shoulder. She mumbled something quickly under her breath as if she was dreaming.Her hair was up in a messy bun, her face beaten up which seemed to go around her whole body, which she tried covering with her jacket. Zayn snapped back and ran towards her," Jess you're really here.. I....I looked everywhere please let me explain I can't go along any further with this pain im feeling please understand," more tears ran down his pale cheek. "mmm...no..zayn...noo,"Jess mumbled trying to open her eyes, but failing. "No no! Please give me a chance to explain I have my reasons why i kept these things to you, and I can't be without you anymore especially when someone is doing this to you, he slightly touched a bruse on her cheek. She flintched back and pushed his hand away/ I could tell it was hard for Zayn not to lung in for here and wrap his arms around her, I could tell he wanted things so just go back to the way they where. Dani looked and gave me a look which read "help". I walked over to his side wrapping my arm around him, "Zayn, we should wait to have this conversation tomorrow, when Jess is fully in the zone she seems a bit tired. You should get some sleep too. Dani you can take the girls to my flay put them in the guest room, and you can stay as well. She gave me a small nod and whispered to Jess to stay by her side.
"Liam how do you expect me to sleep, knowning she's a few feet away from me,"he sighed and walked over to the spare couch. The boys were all cuddled up in the other one not aware of their surroundings, infact they were sound asleep. "Zayn I know it's hard, but you have to give her time she's been through alot of you couldn't tell," he curled up into a ball,"don't remind me, I still need to find out who's doing that to her, I have someone in mind, and i'm thinking of straightening thing out with him," he growled. "No, don't jump to conclusions until your sure, if you do something wrong it may be bad news for you just go to sleep it's getting late and you really need it. We'll all talk tomorrow," I gave him a big hug and walked to my flat taking the elevator down. Once I was inside the house was empty and quiet. I checked into the spare room and saw Ali curled up under Jess's arm as if she we're her mother, and only protector. I've never really thought about Ali and Jessica and their parents. I knew they made wrong turns, but did they care for the girls? I seriously doubt it since they were always on the go. What if Zayn's idea of who is hurting Jess is her own father? "We will discuss this tomorrow,"I quietly mumbled to myself and walked over to my dark room. I pulled out some gray sweats and a long white shirt and began slipping out of my jeans when I saw a sillouet
of a body under the covers of my bed.
I slowly tip toed over to the side of the bed hearing small easy breathing. I pulled the blanket off the bed with the person bolting up into a sitting position. "W-whats going on,"a very startled Danielle yawned as she's rubbed her eyes. "Oh sorry I didn't know you were here I thought you took the other bed,"I pulled the blanket back over her. "I was going to wait until you came back to leave but I fell asleep,"she began getting out of the bed before I pushed her lightly back on," It's fine you can stay," I gave her a smile as she laid back in bed without resisting. I walked over to the other side and allowed the soft cushions rise around me finally being able to relax from all the Zayn problems.
I felt a bright light shine on my eyes as I turned to my side. My eyes fluttered open revealing an unknown room. Where am I? I turned and saw Ali sound asleep on the other side of the bed seeing her chest slowly rise and fall in a steady pace. I opened the door looking around the flat and seeing it was similiar as...his. Am I in his house? I thought Dani was taking me to her place. I walked around noticing some different things reliefed that this wasn't his house but someone's else. I felt a light tap on my should which made me jump, "Sorry, I uh...Hi! It's nice having you back I'm glad your fine...well sorta,"Liam pulled me in for an awkward hug looking as some of the bruises. It made me feel uncomfortable, I tried pulling down my jacket and covering them the best I could. "Don't bother it's okay I won't look or ask, I know it would be painful for you to explain. Do you want some breakfast?,"he walked over to his kitchen as I heard a few clatters from the plates he was pulling out, "Um sure, do you need any help?" I volenteered and follwed behind him. "Sure, can you please go get the mail it should be out infront if you don't mind. I don't think there are any fans outside today, " he peered out the window. "Right, I forgot you guys were...um yea I'm gonna go get the mail," I turned around and headed out the door. Within my first step into the hall I instantly tripped catching myself with the hallway wall. I turned around and saw Zayn sleeping against the wall.next to the door. My heart dropped to my stomach as the inside of my body felt as if I were burning. My throat began feeling heaving as tears began welling up in my eyes. I jolted to the elevator just in case if I woke him up. I dropped my head into my hands, what am I suppose to do? I'm in the building he lives, I can't avoid him here. I pulled out my phone which was nearly dead and dialled Sarah's number. Ring one. Ring two. Ring three. "Jess! Is that you?!?,"I heard someone shout. "Oh my God Sarah you can't believe wha-" Ring four. I switched my eyes to the elevator door which was slowly closing and saw Zayn running towards me with full speed.
"Shit.shit.shit.,"I ran to the buttons and began rapidly pressing the close button. Once it closed I heard a loud bang on the door. Okay he knows I'm here...Ali is upstairs so I can't leave, I looked around for my phone and saw it laying on the corner of the elevator. "Hi this is Sarah sorry I can't reach your right know I'm on a buisness trip leave your name and number after the beep and ill get back yo you as soon as possible. Bye!" Quickly hung up, where am I suppose to go now? The door slip open letting out a small "ding". He will be here soon, my eyes began watering as a took deep breaths," calm down. Don't cry. Calm down. Don't cry." I repeated multiple times. I saw the 5 stacks of newspaper and ran for the very first one my hands toutched. "Jess what!" I turned around seeing Zayn running towards me again. I few tears ran down my cheek as I ran towards the door leading to the stairs. I wanted to turn around and run into his arms. But he kept something big from me. Something that could change my life, i would get hate, death threats. His fans wouldn't like me dating their "future husband". I was now a floor away from Liam's flat. I heard Zayn shouting repeatedly shouting for me to stop, but I was almost there. I reached for the doorknob when I felt a pair of warm arms around my waist,"no! No! Let me go!,"I shouted as loud as I could. I tried struggling free but soon gave up. I broke down crying relaxing my body letting me fall into his arms. His back slid down the wall making up both sit on the floor.
"Why Zayn, why," I asked in a shivering whisper. " tried telling you, I didn't want you to know about us being big-" " Why were you too ashamed to be with me? A nobody," I tried sounded angry but I could be my tough self anymore. I got up and ran ran until i reached the roof door. I walked to the fence and looked down. Seeing the busy streets behind the building. I swung myself over the railing an held on with only my hands and closed my eyes. I was all worn out. My dad's beating, my mom dissapearing, the school bullying, my parents going downhill, struggling to keep Ali alive and healthy, and now this. It was all so much, I've tried and succeeded for years, but everything has to end, and my time was now.
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