4. The New Start
I had been sitting on my bathroom floor in my flat, bawling my eyes out for a long time, probably an hour or so. The blood on my wrists was drying and I refused to look down at them. The pain was unbearable, and I knew that it was supposed to be calming, and it was. Although.. it really did hurt. I was scared, shaking, and crying. It wasn't until I began thinking about the picture again when I heard a knock on my door. I didn't want to get up, to show the world my face. Liam was my first love, and I had been hurt. I weakly pulled myself off of the floor, took one look at my sloppy self in the mirror and walked out of the bathroom. My legs felt like noodles, and I swore I was going to fall over and pass out. I wish I would, and I wish no one would wake me up. After I got to the living room, that door was not that far away. I grabbed a big blanket on my couch and wrapped it around myself so that whoever was there wouldn't see my cuts, and everything else that was a mess. My makeup was smeared and my face was a bright, cherry red from crying so long. I bit my lip and opened the door, laying my eyes on him. It was Liam.. my Liam. But why?
I had waited a good 5 minutes or so, wishing for her to come out quickly. I wanted to see her beautiful self, wrap my arms around her, and kiss her for eternity. But that moment when she opened the door, I swore my heart stopped. My head was spinning, and I was speechless. "C-Chloe.." I managed to mutter out. She looked like a mess.. her hair was ratted up, pieces going in every direction possible. Her blanket was wrapped around her and she was crying. My little Chloe was crying, and I was scared to hear about how much she read or saw. "I know you hate my guts right now, but I love you more than the world and I would really like to explain everything, I can't live another day knowing why I haven't talked to you." I blurted right out, looking right into her eyes. Those bright blue eyes that I saw the first day, the ones I fell for. She was right in front of me, and I wanted to sweep her off her feet and hug her, but I couldn't find myself being able to move. I just needed a new start with her, and as soon as possible.