We sat down at a table and heard most of the songs.
Jake: how do you want the tracklist to be?
Allie: I don’t know really. I thought about stating it with a cover but what do you guys think?
Jake: I’ve made an outcast already.
Allie: How is it?
1 – When I look at you cover
2 – Somebody that I used to know cover
3 – Make a wave ft. Demi Lovato
4 – Can’t be tamed cover
5 – Gonna get this ft. Austin Mahone
6 – Skyscraper cover
7 – Yöu and I cover
8 – This song saved my life cover
9 – Someone like you cover
10 – it girl ft. Austin Mahone
11 – Airplanes ft. PSanders
12 – I want cover
13 – baby come home (original)
14 – The one that got away remix ft. PSanders
15 – Fall apart ft. Miley Cyrus
Allie: that’s good enough for me but maybe we should have a song with Peyton up higher.
Jake: you’re probably right.
We switched a little around on the songs and heard the whole track through.
It was around 10pm when we finished and got out.
I went out to my car. There was a note in the window.
I’m terribly sorry for everything that happened. I don’t want you to be mine I just want you to be happy. I love you with all of my heart and I want you to know that I’ll always be there for you. Be happy. Smile. And show the world the best person you are. Good luck with everything. Call me when you’re ready because I still wanna be your friend. You’re everything that I’ve ever wanted.
Your Peyton <21
I took the note and lay it down on the seat beside me. I wanted to speak with him. I really did but he had hurt me a lot. I think that it was best if it just ended where we were now. Friends. I would meet a lot of people who would make him feel jealous. There would be rumors and chaos and I didn’t want him to be a part of that. I wanted to keep him away from all that instead of a huge chaos.
I started the car and before I knew about it I pulled up in front of his house. He was with someone but I couldn’t see who it was.
Boy: Isn’t that Allie’s car?
Peyton: yeah but she’s working and she doesn’t want to see me.
Allie: Actually I finished.
I stepped out of the car and handed him the note that he had put in my window.
Allie: I found this…
He looked at me for a while and I really wanted to say something but I didn’t know what to say.
Allie: look we need to talk about this.
Peyton: I thought you didn’t want to speak with me.
Allie: I don’t but I have to. I want things to be okay between us.
He came up to me and we sat down in my car.
Allie: Peyton look. I love you with all of my heart and you’re my first love but I can’t go on like this. It’s best if we’re just staying friends. I have my music, my fans, my friends and my family and a tour coming up in 2 months. I can’t think about having a relationship too. I’m sorry.
Peyton: You know what?
Peyton: when you first came here… everything changed. My life changed, music changed, I changed, my family changed. All because of you… But it was in a good way because for the first time in a long time I felt love and happiness when I wasn’t working with my music.
Allie: And I’ll keep giving you that happiness but I’ll do it as you friend and one of the greatest fans you have.
Peyton: I’ll always love you Allie Raff.
Allie: and I will always love you Peyton Sanders.
Peyton: How long are you going to be away for the tour?
Allie: it’s going to be international so it’s going to be for a long time. We’re taking some states and Canada first and then UK and some of Europe.
Peyton: Who’s coming with you?
Allie: I don’t know yet.
He looked at my hands and then my lips. He looked me in the eyes and leaned in. I leaned back and pushed him away.
Allie: Peyton… It’s better if we’re totally off.
Peyton: I know sorry.
I hugged him and then he got out of the car.
Allie: I’ll always love you. Just only as my brother.
Peyton: and you’re my sister.
Allie: or just my first love.
Peyton: I guess that’s better.
Allie: I’ll call.
I took off after he had closed the door. This must have been one of the hardest things that I had ever done.
When I got home I sat down with my laptop. I went into twitter.
@TheReadlPSanders the time we had was amazing and I’ll always love you but I have to move on. Thanks for being such a great support to me. I love you.
My mentioned were spammed shortly after both from my supporters but also haters and Peyton’s fans.
I saw one that really touched my heart.
@AllieRaff thanks God that he finally got rid of you! You’ve been nothing but pain to this fan base.
Wow what a bitch I thought to myself.
@SandersGirl hi hater <21
I knew how much people hated when I did that and I wasn’t going to reply to them to tell them how they had hurt me or anything else I was just going to focus on all the love.
I decided to make a vlog for all of my fans.
Allie: Hey guys it’s Allie. Yeah what I just wrote twitter was actually really sad I know but I just want you all to know that I’m okay and that my album will be out in 10 days from now. We just finished it tonight, and the tour is ready tickets go on sale tomorrow by noon. Remember I’ll be on the Ellen show again. I’ll be there this Wednesday so it’s three days from now and I’m really excited. I haven’t seen Ellen for a long time and she’s a great person. Also I don’t know who’ll be touring with me but Jake and Barry are working something out and I might be touring with someone in the spring unless my tour continues, and of course I hope that it’ll continue because I love you guys and you’ve just made this ride really insane and I love you all for doing this to me. You’re truly amazing. BTW I’m giving away these meet and greet tickets for my concert in Chicago and my concert in New York and my concert in Los Angeles. Info on how to get them will be out tomorrow. I can’t wait to meet you all. It’s going to be great! Remember the tour starts at June 1st and the album is out on May 15th. Yeah that’s all for now. Enjoy the small things in life. I love you all. Thanks for all the hard and good work supporting me and to the haters. I love you too. ;)