I pulled Austin away from me and got up crying from the bed. I ran out into the bathroom and sat down on the floor. I could hear Michele she was in Austin’s room.
Michele: what happened? And why are you in her bed?!
Austin: I kissed her…
Michele: then what happened?
Austin: She got up and ran away crying.
Austin: Don’t blame me.
Michele walked out to the bathroom and knocked the door.
Michele: sweetie, are you okay?
Allie: yeah I’m fine…
Michele: Please open the door.
Michele: Allie open the door.
Allie: Just leave me alone…
Michele: Allie Raff, open the door now!
I got up from the floor and opened the door. My mascara was all over my face and my eyes were terribly read.
Michele: What’s going on?
I walked into Austin’s room and sat down on my bed. Austin got up to me and hugged me but I pushed him away. Michele sat down beside me on the bed and had an arm around my shoulder.
Michele: Austin will you please leave for a second?
Michele: Now Allie… you need to tell me what’s going on inside of your head so we can help you.
I wiped away some tears from my eyes and looked at her.
Allie: I’m confused… I’m really, really confused.
Michele: Tell me about it sweetie. I’m here for you.
Allie: You know how me and Peyton was kinda dating? I don’t think there’s anything in it. I can’t be with him unless I move to Atlanta. I actually am moving to Atlanta. My mom just needs to sign my contract. But at the same time… Austin is just a really amazing person, and I can’t stay away from him.
Michele: what does your heart tell you?
Allie: To stay away from everything that has a pulse.
Michele: but you can’t do that forever. What about just living and convince yourself that the boy you’re feeling best around is the one you’re supposed to be with?
Allie: That’s what I’m trying to but it’s hard when both of them are kissing me all the time.
Michele: You should speak with Austin about this sweetie. Really. I don’t want him to be ruined by a girl.
Allie: Me neither.
Michele: Now get some sleep and speak with him about it tomorrow.
Michele walked out of the room and Austin walked back in. I just felt like turning my back on him and sleep but I had to explain to him what was going on.
Austin just sat down in his own bed. I sat up in my own and looked at him and then down at the floor.
Allie: Austin I’m sorry.
He didn’t say anything he just kept looking down at the floor.
Allie: Austin I’m really sorry about all this. I love you and you know that but you’re more like a brother to me.
Austin: funny… I didn’t think you would kiss your brother like that.
Allie: stop it! I’m trying to explain myself here.
Austin: Well I still don’t believe that you don’t have feelings for me.
Allie: Fine! I, Allie Raff have feelings for you Austin Mahone. Is that good enough for you? I’ve had feelings for you for a long time but I’ve just tried to convince myself something different because I know I’m moving to Atlanta. I’ve known that since Barry Weiss spoke to me for the first time. The man is signing me Austin. I can’t live that far away from you and still be in a relationship with you.
Austin looked at me. He didn’t say anything he just stared at me as if I had just frozen him or something. It looked kinda funny but this was not a time to laugh. I was serious. I did have feelings for him and I knew I would have unless I left. But my feelings for Peyton were stronger. I know something might have changed my feelings when Peyton visited me but I was still insanely in love with him. As soon as I heard his voice in my earphones I felt butterflies inside of me. I was insanely in love with him.
Allie: Say something!
Austin: what do you want me to say?
Allie: just something.
Austin: fine… I knew you liked me. And I was right. End of story.
I lay down in my bed and turned my back to him.
Austin: why didn’t you tell me that you were signed?
Allie: Because the contract isn’t signed yet. I’m going to be signed. I have the contract. Or actually they are sending it to my mom, who’s going to sign it and then send it back so I can sign it.
Austin: cool. So when are you moving?
Allie: I don’t know. I need to find somewhere to live. But Jake is calling me in the morning to tell me about everything. Him and Barry are going to be my new managers.