He looked at me with sad eyes and the turned his back to me and pretended to be sleeping. I guess that meant that it was the truth.
Allie: Peyton can we talk about this?
Peyton: there’s nothing to talk about.
Allie: Do you want me to move into a hotel?
Peyton: no just stay here.
He turned around again and looked at me.
Peyton: I’ve liked you for a long time and when we started writing a talking shortly after you came on YouTube I knew there was something over you. I actually thought you liked me too.
Allie: I’m sorry. I’m confused to be honest. I really like you Peyton but I just don’ want anything to happen. I care too much about you for that. Beside that I live on the other side of the planet and I don’t know if I’m coming back to the U.S again anytime soon.
I went back to his bed and hugged him.
Allie: can’t we just be like this and then have the best week of my life. I’m going home in 10 days and I don’t wanna lose you before I’m going.
He hugged me close into him and held me there for a long time. I enjoyed being in his arms. I felt save and I really liked him but when I knew that I was moving back I couldn’t just be in a relationship with him.
Through the next couple of days I got closer and closer to him. I started liking him a lot and I couldn’t help it, I was really falling for him. There was only one problem. My feelings were with another person too. I had met another great person who was going to Teen Hoot too.
Austin and Alex had a friend coming over to visit them the day after they arrived here. His name is Robert and we had, had a great time. I was really falling for him but I couldn’t tell Peyton.
I spent my Wednesday night with Robert. Peyton didn’t like it but Robert had asked me out for dinner and a movie and I said yes.
When the movie was over Robert walked me to Peyton’s place. I hugged him as I was about to walk upstairs but he didn’t let go of me.
Robert: Allie there’s something I need to tell you.
He hugged me again and then leaned in for a kiss. I couldn’t kiss him even though I wanted to. It would just be wrong because I had feeling for Peyton too.
But before I knew about it I felt how our lips met and how we melted into one piece. My eyes were closed and his strong arms were around my waist. He moved his hand up in my hair and held me closer into his body.
When it was over I looked at him hugged him and walked in without saying a word. I sat down in the hall a couple of floors up. I was crying. I didn’t want to be like this or feel like this. I just wanted it all to be perfect.
I took out my Danish phone and called my friend Camille even though it was the middle of the night for her.
Allie: Bun we gotta talk.
Camille: honey what’s wrong?
Allie: Robert invited me out on a date and we kissed. I have feelings for him but I’m in love with Peyton too. What do I do?
Camille: where are you staying tonight?
Allie: At Peyton’s.
Camille: Can you tell him?
Allie: No it’ll hurt him. He’s been in love with me before we even met.
Camille: Bun, just take it slow. You’re coming home by the end of the week and then we talk about it okay?
Camille: I got to get some sleep. I love you.
Allie: love you too.
*end of phone conversation*
I walked up to Peyton and into his room. He was doing a surprise ustream or something but he ended it as soon as I was there.
Peyton: do you know what time it is?
Peyton: yeah… where have you been?
Allie: at the movies with Robert as I promised him yesterday…
Peyton: are you crying?
Allie: I don’t wanna talk about it.
I sat down on the bed and was about to break down again. I hated having feeling for two boys at the same time. Especially because I had to hurt either both of them or only one of them and I that was actually the thing I hated.
I took a deep breath and got out to the bathroom where I took some headache pills and went back into the room and lay down in my bed. I was sleeping before I knew about it. But I woke up in the middle of the night because Peyton was holding his arms around me.
I had to tell him but I decided to wait until we were in Nashville, next day.