I felt how the tears were running down my tears before I even realized what Peyton said.
Allie: no… no… I can’t… I can’t leave.
My mom came up to me.
Allie’s mom: You did great hun. There’s no need to cry. You’re gonna get signed. Trust me.
Allie: but… you’re taking me home aren’t you.
My mom’s face turned from happy to serious.
Allie’s mom: yes it does hun. We’re going home Thursday.
I sat down on the floor and cried. I cried as hard as I could ever remember I had cried. It was like a little kid who lost her mother in the mall and felt left alone and unsafe.
Allie’s mom: Allie it’s for your own good. It’ll be good for you to come home for a while.
Allie: home?! Home for what? There’s nothing left in Denmark for me. I hate being there. The only good thing is when I’m out doing concerts but last time I was home, what happened? I ended up being unable to do anything for a month and when I could finally do something the only thing I was allowed to do or able to was sitting in my room writing songs. How did that work out? Now you want me to go home for a month and just hope that I’ll get this? Mom this takes hard work, it takes concerts. It takes everything! Peyton is helping me with this. I don’t want to leave him.
Allie’s mom: we’ll talk about it later.
She always said that but we never really spoke about it.
I didn’t speak with my mom for the last couple of days we were in the states. I just spent most of my time with my friends.
I was sitting in the park Tuesday night with Austin. Peyton was in the studio working on a new single. He was gone far but he wasn’t signed. He had been offered but he chose to say no to it. He wanted it to be with the right person for him.
Allie: are you gonna come support me at me and Miley’s interview tomorrow?
Austin: I’m sorry I can’t. I’m going in the studios. Beside I’ll have to pack. I’ll be going to Miami this weekend to work on an album. They totally liked me last Sunday.
Allie: yeah wish they liked me as much as they liked you.
Austin: don’t say that. They loved you.
Allie: Yeah but I said no when I got the offer because of Barry Weiss.
Austin: I think you made the right decision.
Austin: Because you have the right to decide something too and you weren’t allowed to if you have chosen different.
Allie: yeah you’re probably right about that.
Austin looked at me.
Austin: I’m really gonna miss you. Promise me you’ll visit me in Miami?
Allie: Austin I would travel all the way to China to visit you.
He hugged me and then we got up from our seats.
Allie: I love you Austin. You’re a true friend. Thanks for everything you’ve done for me. It’s really been a pleasure to be with you for so long. And thanks for visiting me and performing with me back in Denmark. You’ve really done everything that I’ve always dreamt of doing.
Austin: you’re welcome.
I hugged him again and started crying.
Allie: I’m really gonna miss you.
I did something that I’ll never forget this night. When I was about to let go off Austin I leaned in on him and kissed him shortly on the lips. It was only like when I kissed Camille but I didn’t know why I was doing it. I pulled away when Austin was about to continue the kiss.
Allie: I’m sorry. I better go now. I hope to see you soon.
I hugged him and then ran back to Peyton’s house. Saying good bye to Austin was a terrible thing and it hurt a lot. I didn’t want to go home or let him leave.
The next day was busy. I worked the whole day to pack all of my things and get ready for the show tonight with David Letterman. I was so nervous that I didn’t eat all day.
Miley met me backstage at the show. Peyton, Jake and my mom were there to show their support to. The show started shortly after we arrived and we were going to get ready to go out on stage.
Letterman: and with me tonight have two special girls. Their single just came out today. You might have heard it already but they are going to sing it here for us too. Give it up for Miley Cyrus and Allie Raff with Something Deep Inside Of Me.
The music for our song started. It was the best feeling ever to stand there and sing in front of that many people and on live TV too. It made me a bit nervous but I knew that it would help me I was giving it everything that I could and tried to show some personality while signing because I knew that Barry Weiss were going to watch this. As soon as the music stopped David Letterman walked up to us. I was shaking a bit but I was going to hide it as good as I could.
Letterman: that was amazing girls. Now come on over and sit with me.
We walked with him and sat down in each chair.
Letterman: Welcome to you two! That was a good song. Who wrote it?
Miley: Allie did. She’s such an amazing songwriter.
Letterman: Well Allie you’re new in this business, how has been for you so far?
Allie: Different. Really different. I was so surprised when I met Miley. It was really amazing because she was one of the persons that inspired me to sing and I’ve also been singing her songs. So it’s been really amazing to be here and sing my song with her.
Letterman: I see. So what are you going to do now that your single is out? Is there in concerts on the way?
Allie: Actually I’m going home to Denmark tomorrow and I might be doing some concerts there. But my mom and I agreed, or actually she told me to come home and stay home for a while and focusing on getting signed and impress the people who are keeping an eye on me right now.
Letterman: Have you any plans on returning to the states?
Allie: I have the most amazing friends over here and my best friend from Denmark is actually living here too so I’m definitely coming back soon. But it’ll be good to come home and maybe meet some of my Danish fans.
Letterman: that sounds great. Now Miley you chose yourself to sing this song with Allie, why?
Miley: Allie is just such a sweet girl. I met her in the studios and she was singing one of my songs and her vocal is just so strong for a girl that age. I chose to do this because it was a chance for me to get something new out and help someone who became my friend while we did this.
There were a couple of more questions in the interview and it was really fun doing it but I was crying out backstage when it was over because I was going home in a couple of hours. The plane would be leaving at 9am. I still didn’t speak with my mom when Peyton dropped us off at the airport the next morning.
He hugged me just as I had to leave.
Allie: I can’t do this. I can’t do this without you.
Peyton: You have to. Stay strong beautiful. I’ll always be here with you. I promise. I’ll visit you soon it’ll be before you know it.
I cried even harder.
We held each other’s hands and kissed. Peyton was the one to stop the kiss. I felt sick as I walked away.
Peyton: I’ll never forget you Allie Raff. I’ll be there with you soon. I promise.
We boarded the plane and I was listening to music. My mom tried to speak to me in Danish but I pretended that I didn’t understand a word she was saying. I sat down on my seat with my earphone in my head. I was listening to Peyton’s music as I cried really hard and looked out of the window.