Peyton looked at me. He seemed nervous.
I looked out of the window before I said anything.
Peyton: you’re not gonna tell me what happened since you were crying are you?
Allie: Austin kissed me when I was at the lake.
I was still staring out of the window.
Peyton: He did what?!
Allie: Austin kissed me when I was at the lake. Our lips barely touched each other but he did kiss me, first I thought he was going to help me with the song I was working. But when he moved closer I knew something else was going on and my whole body froze. I couldn’t move at all.
Peyton turned my head so that I was looking at him.
Peyton: Please say this isn’t true.
Allie: it is.
He got up, he seemed mad.
Allie: Can I ask you something?
Allie: we’re not even dating, so why are you pulling such a big number out of this? I stopped the kiss before it barely was a kiss. I yelled at him and told him I didn’t want to see him before we were all going to the studio again.
Peyton: Yeah but do you think that’s gonna change what it feels like inside of me?
Allie: Obviously not.
Peyton: look I started liking you 2 months before we first met. It’s been 4 months and if I hadn’t kissed you back in Nashville we would still be just friends.
Allie: we’re still JUST friends. I thought you knew that.
Peyton: But maybe I thought something different because of all the conversations we’ve had through skype, or maybe it was because I was stupid enough when I kissed you at the airport. Don’t you see it? I don’t care about the distance. I’m whiling to travel all the time. I’m whiling to miss you for 2 whole months and just enjoy the time I have with you. Allie I love you but you obviously don’t get how much I love you.
I was speechless. I felt like slapping him and kiss him at the same time but I couldn’t get myself to do either. He was right. I hadn’t realized that this was the way that he was feeling because I was too worried about how I would feel myself. I didn’t want to feel the pain of missing him or anything else. I just wanted to be in his arms 24/7.
I sat down on the bed and looked like I was totally lost in my own world. I still didn’t say anything.
Peyton lay me down on the bed and kissed me in a way that again reminded me of Nashville. We kissed for a long time. Actually we were just lying there in his bed and kissed until his mom walked into the room without knocking.
Peyton’s mom: Dinner is ready.
Allie: We’ll be down in a second.
She looked at me, my hair was messy and my shirt didn’t cover my stomach. Peyton’s hair was messy too.
Peyton’s mom: sure just take your time…
She looked confused and then hurried out of the door.
Allie: great… now you probably thinks that we had sex or something.
Peyton: Don’t worry, she’s cool about something like that.
Allie: a bit too much information there Peyton.
He smiled and kissed me again before he got up from the bed and helped me up.
Peyton: I’ll go get some dinner, we’re just eating in here. Just sit down again.
I smiled at him and lay down in the bed. It took Peyton a while so I took my guitar and started playing that melody I played down at the lake. But this time I randomly started singing something that magically matched perfect into the chords.
You’re always there
When no one else will stay
You say what no one wants to say
And you’re the one that always cares
You’re the best in every way
So please just… just stay
Peyton walked in with dinner for both of us while I was singing.
Peyton: that was actually good.
Allie: you think?
Peyton: yeah I liked it. It was beautiful.
Allie: thanks. It just came out of my mind while I was playing.
Peyton sat the food on his table and lay my guitar down on the floor.
Peyton: we didn’t finish. You wanted to talk about us.
Peyton: what about us?
Allie: I thought kissing you for 30 minutes was enough said…
Peyton: I wanna hear it in words.
Allie: I’m in love with you Peyton, and I’ve been for a long time and it’s so painful that I can’t take your hand or kiss you wherever I want. I just wanna be with you but for me it’s too painful to live that far away from each other. And with the future I have right now I just have to stay focused on the music.
Peyton: But you’re living with me.
Allie: yeah right now I am but what am I gonna do when I go home to Denmark in a month? Or if I’m even going home…
Peyton: Just be mine when you’re here then…
He was almost sitting at my lap and holding one hand around my neck. We were close to each other and I was all calm
Allie: I’m your no matter where I am. I’ve belonged to you since I first met you.
Our lips melted together as to one thing. It was amazing and I felt like I was flying. Peyton pulled up on top of him while we were kissing. I felt how we were becoming one person while we were holding each other close.
When the kiss was over and we were just hugging each other I felt how my heart was beating and how happy I felt. I was at the place where I belonged with the person I belonged with.