I am getting really worried about Ally. Ever since we came back from London, I have noticed her health has gone down and she is being very emotional. I wish she would just tell me what is wrong with her. We have been through so much together and if she doesn’t tell me what’s wrong with her, it hurts. It hurts me to know that she is hiding something from me, and I can’t do anything to help her with it.
I sighed deeply pondering the different acts of my girlfriend. I think Ally went outside to see what Louis was up to; Eleanor followed straight after. I couldn’t help but thing something has been going on. Even Lou was his annoying old fun self. He seemed a bit depressed too. I didn’t like seeing the ones I love hurt and upset.
I was dragged out of my thoughts by Zayn clearing his throat. My gaze lifted towards him. “Are you alright, mate?” he asked leaning forward.
“Yeah,” I sighed again. “Why wouldn’t I be?” I asked. Did it really show that I was all… confused inside?
“Well for a start, you’ve been deep in thought at time over the past few days. You’ve stopped reading, and you’re not telling everyone to be sensible when we ought to.” He explained in one big breath. I rolled my eyes at his response.
“I do read.” I stated, flatly.
Zayn’s eyes brows raised, “Oh really?” I nodded. “Okay, when was the last time you read?” he challenged, smirking. I looked in thought as I tried to remember, than I hesitated to answer. “See? This proves my point. You haven’t read in a while. You love to read, what happened Li?” Zayn asked, looking genuinely worried.
“Nothing’s the matter.” I mumbled. “Where’s Nialler and Harry?” I questioned, trying to change the subject.
“They are out shopping. Niall was comlaining that Ally left no food for him, so Hazza took him out.” He laughed, shaking his head. I small smiled tugged on the corner of my lips but slipped away with the next question.
“What’s wrong Li?” Zayn asked again, going back to the previous subject. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. Honestly, I didn’t know what was wrong with me. It was just seeing Ally so different and then Lou changing his behaviour… I don’t know what to think.
Maybe they were having an affair behind my back? No. Lou would never do that to El and Ally would never do that to me. After all Louis did think of Ally nothing more than a little sister. Could it be an illusion that they were creating? Maybe they were just acting in front of me saying that they were like brother and sister, but behind my back they could have been doing….. no. I couldn’t jump to assumptions. I wouldn’t jump to assumptions.
I heard Zayn clear his throat again waiting for his answer. I guess I must have dazed off. “Nothing is wrong.” I muttered underneath my breath, before getting up from my seat on the couch and went upstairs. I needed a shower right now.
“You know, I’m always here if you want to talk!” Zayn yelled behind me; I didn’t bother replying. Instead I stormed upstairs, ready to drown my feelings in a nice hot shower.
I laughed as I took another swig out of the alcohol bottle. Stupid Kelly! She thinks by doing my dirty work she will get me back? Fat chance! There was only one girl I loved, and that was my beautiful Alex. She belonged with me; soon I was to get her.
Speaking of Alex, Kelly had told me some useful information for once. My darling may or may not be pregnant, from what Kelly had, I think she defiantly is. But trust me; if Kelly is lying I will have her hanged. When I say something I stick to it.
Alex being pregnant can be a good thing and bad. Good because it may be mine, which means Alex and me will have an even stronger bond. We will start a family together and live like one. I will be a dad, and teach my son or daughter everything I know.
However it could be bad. Why? Well because she might have had it with that beach ball Liam, or whatever his name is. I pulled a disgusted face at that thought. No. It couldn’t be Liam’s, it has to be mine!
I slammed my alcohol bottle on the floor and watched it crash into a million pieces. “She will be mine!” I roared, breathing heavily. I cannot bear the thought of losing her to that piece of shit! Alex will be mine and so will our child.
Once I’d calmed down, I smirked. If it is mine there would be no way she could escape from me. I laughed aloud at the thought conjuring in my head. If that baby was mine, and it will be mine, she can’t just throw it away. Because for a fact I know that Alec would never abort a child, or abandon it in a care home. She’s too soft and sweet to do that to her own child.
My heart filled with bliss, as I closed my eyes and in front of me appeared Alex, holing my hand and kissing my cheek. In front of us playing would be a little son. Hmm, I have always wanted a son. I will make him just like me. He will be like a mini Damen. Perfect.
I lay back in my leather arm chair and dreamt. I dreamt about her, my son, and me; together, like a family should me. It will happen one day, whether I make it come sooner or now. Now all I had to do was waiting for a confirmation from Kelly to say whether my darling really was pregnant, and then I will choose my next step.