I woke up with my head pounding. What just happened? The last thing I remember was Damen. Oh God Damen! I looked around my surroundings. I was in my room, on my bed. I lifted up the sheets and my jaw dropped, whilst my eyes widened. I was naked. My eyes travelled along my body. I had bruises and cuts everywhere and the more I thought about how it got there I could feel my body aching even more. How did this happen?
I looked to my bed side table and found a paper folded in half, with a dried rose on top. My heart suddenly started to race. It was real. Damen was here. He did this to me. He… raped me. I hands were shaking as I reached for the note and I slowly unfolded it.
I got more than what I wanted. That kiss was simply not enough. Just a note to say, next time you’re going home with me.
No. He couldn’t have. But he did, and I couldn’t stop him. I scrunched up the note and threw it in the bin. He wouldn’t not take me away. I stared back at my naked body. How could I have been raped? Tears started to fall out of my eyes. What would Liam think of me now? What would everyone think of me when they find out? No. I would not let them find out. I would not let Damen ruin anything else.
I looked up to the clock it was six in the evening, still the same day. How long was I out for? Suddenly I heard the front door opening downstairs. Who was that? I relaxed a bit when I heard El’s voice. Thank god they were back. I was going to run down and hug her when I realised I was still naked. I will not let anyone find out. I quickly went in my wardrobe and pulled on some sweats and a tee. There. I looked in the mirror, and sighed.
I looked dreadful. I had tear marked on my face and my hair was a mess. I couldn’t let the girls see me like this. I quickly brushed my hair and washed my face. You could see bruises on my face, they were only faint though. I brushed some foundation onto my face and examined myself. All good. I would not let Damen get me down or ruin my life once again. Never. I put on a brave face and headed downstairs. Inside my heart was filled with fear of what would happen next.
“El…Kyra?” I called out, nervous. I walked into the kitchen where I heard some giggling.
“Ally!” Eleanor embraced me in a hug. I hugged her back, happy to feel her presence. I was still disturbed and shocked on the inside. She makes me calm.
“I’m so sorry we were late back. Kyra wanted to go to Victoria’s secrets, I denied. But you know how she is.” El explained. I pulled back.
“I’m sorry Ally.” Kyra said.
“It’s okay, you guys. Hug?” I said stretching my arms out. Both piled hugged me tightly, and I couldn’t help but wince in pain. My bruises hurt. I decided to go with the usual line to get the, off me.
“Guys, I can breathe.” I said. They immediately pulled back, and looked at me strange. “What?” I questioned.
“You’re not the one to pull away from a hug.” El said suspiciously.
“El, I’m just really tired, and I didn’t have room to breathe.” I said innocently. However she circled me like I was lying.
“You are okay though, right?” she asked worried. Did it show on my face that I wasn’t? I hope not. I nodded, with a forced smile on my face.
“Okay!” she said changing the mood and smiled again. She skipped over to Kyra and helped her put the grocery away.
“Urm, I will be in the living room.” I said walking away. I needed time to myself.
“Kyra, can you put the rest of the stuff away? I want to talk to Lou.” I asked hopeful she’ll let me go. She nodded and continued humming. I walked out into the garden taking in the fresh air, and pulled out my mobile phone from my jean pocket.
After seeing the state Ally was in, I really needed to talk to Lou. She looked worse than yesterday. He face was pale and I could tell she was wearing foundation to cover it up, but it wasn’t fooling me. She had bags underneath her eyes and it really wasn’t like her to pull away from a hug. Plus when she came downstairs she hugged me like it was the last day of her life. I was really surprised. Something was wrong, and I knew it.
I scrolled through my contracts and pressed Louis’ number and waited for him to pick up. I head his voice after two rings. “Hello, my love. How are you?” he said in his happy tone.
“Hello Lou. I’m fine.” I sighed. Suddenly his voice turned serious.
“What’s wrong?” he asked, worriedly.
“Ally.” I stated. “She’s not behaving like herself.” I explained.
“Why? What’s wrong with her?” he questioned.
“She pulled away from a hug. She always says she’s tired and she’s always acting like something is bothering her. It’s just not like the Ally I know, Lou.” I said exasperated.
“Okay El. Calm down.” He said soothingly. I did. “We’re going to be home by tomorrow. And I’m sure she’ll get better when she sees Liam.” He said reassuringly.
“Yeah. Why are you coming back so early?” I asked surprised.
“We found out news that Damen is not in London anymore. So were coming home. He could be anywhere and Ally needs us right now.” He said sadly.
“That’s frightens me Lou. I am scared for Ally. The poor girl has been through a lot already and now this?” I mumbled.
“I know El. Please calm down. We’ll all be there tomorrow.” He reminded me. I sighed.
“Lou?” I asked.
“I can’t help but feel like Ally is hiding something from me. From all of us.” I said. It was true. She put on a brave face in the kitchen and forced a smile. That is not like the Ally I know.
“Maybe she is. You never know with Ally. She always wants what’s best and that might not always be the right way to go.” He told me.
“What should I do?” I asked, helpless. That’s what I felt right now. Helpless.
“Try and get it out of her. And if she still denies then leave it to Liam. But I am sure that as soon as she sees Liam, she will return to her normal self. There is no need to worry.” He said.
“Okay Lou. Thanks.” I said sad. I didn’t like seeing Ally like this. She was like my little sister and I loved her. I wanted to be there for her and fix all her problems but I couldn’t do that if she won’t tell me what’s on her mind. I was knocked out of my thoughts.
“Yes Lou?” I asked focusing.
“Tell Ally that Liam is eating, finally. I am sure that will make her happy.” He suggested. I frowned, was Liam not eating?
“Why was Liam not eating?” I asked my full attention on what he had to say.
“Well, I don’t really know. But I’m sure he is in a same state Ally is in now. They just need to be reunited.” I agreed, with him.
“Okay Lou, I have to go.” I said quickly. I forgot all about poor Kyra and the grocery.
“Bye my carrot queen.” Chirped Lou. I smiled.
“Bye boor bear.” Was the last thing I said before I ended the call.
I walked back inside and apologised to Kyra. She said it was okay and I helped her to put the last of the things away. A part of me was angry at Kyra though. If she didn’t beg to go to Victoria’s secrets then we could have been home earlier and Ally wouldn’t have to be alone too much. But I pushed my thoughts to the back of my mind and calmed myself.
I sat on the couch thinking about what had happened. The way Damen trapped me so close to hi, the way his breath tickled my neck. The way he would back me up against the wall. The pain in my head got worse. The way Damen hit me. I tried to shake the images out of my mind but hey would go. No matter what the images wouldn’t leave. They would be there forever.
I didn’t realise El and Kyra were both sat on each side of me until the remote in my hand was snatched away. I looked towards Kyra.
“Are you watching this?” she said already changing the channel. I sighed. Normally I would shout at her and get all angry, but I just didn’t have the energy today. I slumped back in my seat and shook my head.
“Okay then. I want to watch this.” She said finally deciding on a program.
“16 and pregnant?” asked Eleanor in disgust. My ears perked up.
“Yes, I haven’t watched it in a while now. It’s entertaining.” Kyra answered.
I paid close attention to the program. I have never heard of it before and it did seem interesting. But the more I watched the more it made me worried.
Damen rapped me; what if he got me pregnant in the process? No. I would never be pregnant with his baby. But I couldn’t help but think what if I was. Would I abort it? No, I would never abort a child. Even if the father was an evil jerk like Damen. What is I decided to keep the baby? Would Liam leave me? Would he think I was a slut and walk away after everything we have been though? I cleared my mind. I didn’t need to worry about that. I prayed I wasn’t pregnant.
I didn’t know was in a trance until my phone vibrated. I looked at it and it was a message from El. I looked towards her and gave her a questioning look. Opening the message it read.
What’s wrong? You don’t seem yourself. Xx
I sighed. Was it really that visible? I text her back saying I was fine. And was just about to put my phone away when it buzzed again. Another message from El, it said:
I know you’re not okay. Want to go elsewhere and tell me?
I smiled at her intentions but shook my head at her. I just want Liam back I thought.
“He is coming back.” Answered El. Did I just say my thought out aloud?
“Yes you did honey.” Damn. I need to stop doing that. But my mind was brought back to when Liam was coming back.
“When is Li coming back?” I asked excitedly, but on the inside I prayed he did find out and I wasn’t pregnant because there was a chance of me losing him. Forever and always.
“Relax. Lou says tomorrow.” She answered with a big smile on her face. I couldn’t help but squeal and hug her.
Tomorrow Liam was would be in my arm and I would be safe once again. Damen would never dare coming near me.