Gotta Be You

I know how they both feel and now all that’s left to do is to find out how I feel.

And right now, my heart is stuck in the middle of a tug-o-war. Niall pulling hard on one side and Harry pulling just as hard on the other.


24. The Truth Or Another Lie?

Niall’s POV


I sat in my car at Harry’s driveway, absentmindedly tapping my foot and biting my nails. Why did I agree to come tonight? What would I tell Isla? I can’t tell her the truth about why I’ve been avoiding her. She knows that I have been since I said that we’d talk about it tonight.

Stupid, Niall.

The truth was that I’ve been avoiding her because I couldn’t stand being around her anymore. Not because I didn’t want to but because every time I’m around her, I just want to tell her the truth. I want her to know that we’re together.

And every second that I spend with her, I want to hold her, touch her, hug her, kiss her.

So I’ve been avoiding her as much as possible or I’ll do something I’ll regret.

But here I am now, in her driveway, and I can’t back out now.

I took in a deep breath and closed my eyes. And then I jumped when I heard someone knock on my car window.

I opened my eyes and I saw Zayn and Perrie outside my car.

I gave them a forced smile and opened the door and got out.

“Hey, mate,” Zayn said, “you okay?”

“Yeah, just a bit of a headache,” I lied, “I’ll be fine. Hey, Perrie.” I gave her a hug.

“Hey, Niall.”

“Let’s go,” I said, heading towards the front door.

We went inside and headed out to the backyard. I swept the place for Isla, my heart beating faster. And finally I saw her, with her back facing me, talking to Louis and El. Louis spotted me and nudged Isla and then pointed towards me.

I saw Isla spin her head around, looking for me, when we finally met gazes. She gave a big smile and started walking towards me after she excused herself from Louis and El.

She finally reached me and hesitantly gave me a hug but the second that she was in my arms, I hugged her tight. She wrapped her arms around my neck tightly and snuggled her face into the crook of my neck, her breath on my neck sending shivers down my back.

“I’m so glad you’re here, Ni,” she said. We still didn’t let go and I never wanted to.

“Same here,” I said. After a few seconds, she leaned her head back to look at me with her arms still around my neck. We just stared at each other with small smiles on our faces.

I didn’t know whether to bring up what we came here to talk about or not and I was about to when Isla interrupted my thoughts.

“You want a drink?”

I relaxed a bit and nodded. “Sure.”

“Okay, I’ll be right back.”

I watched her as she went inside and into the kitchen, out of sight.

Now I was more confused about whether I should tell her the truth tonight. That hug sent millions of memories of us together and I was craving more. I never wanted to let go.

I wanted her back.

But I know that I can’t tell her the truth. I can’t risk losing her again if she goes back into a coma. I guess I’ll just have to come up with another lie. But I didn’t want to worry about it right now. I’ll just have to deal with it once we start talking about it.

I looked up and saw Harry walking towards me.

“Hey, Niall, glad you could make it, Isla was really hoping to see you tonight,” he said.

“Yeah,” I said, “well, I couldn’t say ‘no’ to that girl. It’s hard to say ‘no’ to her and she means a lot to me.”

Harry’s expression turned serious and it looked like he was thinking hard about something.

After a few seconds of silence, he said, “so Isla told me that you guys are gonna talk about…things tonight.”

“Yeah,” I said, “I don’t know what went through my mind. I should’ve just told her that I’ve been feeling sick lately.”

“What do you mean?” he asked.

I took a deep breath. “I was thinking of telling her the truth.”

Harry’s eyes went wide for a second and he just continued to look at me.


“Yeah, I know. I can’t tell her. Don’t worry, I won’t. You don’t have to worry about me telling her, you’ll still get to be with her for another week.”

I could tell that my words hurt Harry and I immediately wished I could take it back.

I shook my head. “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean that. I’ve just…I’ve been kinda down lately. I’m really sorry.”

He put his hand on my shoulder and gave me a small smile. “Don’t worry about it. I know you didn’t mean that. I understand. If you want, I can back up your story about feeling sick lately, if that’s what you want to tell her.”

“Yeah. Yeah, I’ll see.”

“Anyways, she’s coming. I’ll let you guys have some time together. I’ll be over there with Louis.”

I nodded at him and watched him walk away. I turned around and saw Isla heading over to me with a drink in her hand.

“Here you go,” she said, handing over the drink to me.

“Thanks,” I said. There was now an awkward silence that seems so out of place with us. “Wanna sit?” I gestured towards the empty loveseat.

“Sure,” she said, nodding. We headed over to the loveseat and sat down.

“So, how’ve you been?” she asked me.

“I’ve been good,” I said, “actually, that’s what I wanted to talk to you about.”

She looked at me confusedly and my mind was going a million miles per hour right now. Do I tell her the truth?

“Um…” I can’t risk losing her again. That’s what I should keep reminding myself.

“What is it, Niall?”

“The reason I’ve been avoiding you…is that…” I said. I looked at her and I got lost in her eyes. Can I handle one more week before telling her the truth? I’ve already lasted three weeks. I think I can handle it.

“…I’ve been really sick lately.”

She still had a confused look on her face. “Oh. Then why couldn’t you just tell me that?”

Shit. What do I say?

“Oh…um…you know…I, I didn’t want to worry you,” I stuttered. “I know you. You would’ve wanted to take care of me but I didn’t want to bother you and I wanted you to focus on getting yourself better.”

I looked at her and for a second I thought I saw a hint of an expression that looked like she didn’t believe me but she just shook it off and gave me a smile.

“Ni, next time, just tell me, okay?” she said, she rested her hand on my knee, sending electricity down my body, “instead of making me worried about why on earth you’ve been avoiding me.”

I smiled back. “I’m sorry. I promise I’ll tell you next time.”

“Good.” Her smile growing. “So, we’re good?”

“Gooder than good,” I joked.

She laughed and, taking me by surprise, she leaned over to give me a hug.

“I missed you so much!”

I wrapped my arms around her, taking in the scent of her perfume.

“I missed you more.” We finally let go and we just sat there. We just talked about what’s happened in the time that we’ve spent apart, catching up, joking around, laughing.

I can’t believe that I almost told her the truth. I’d take this, us right now, over having her possibly going back into coma.

It’s just one more week. One more short week until we have to tell her.

And I shouldn’t be too ecstatic about it. There’s a chance that once we tell her, she might not want me back. She might want Harry.

But I shook those thoughts out of my head so I could enjoy this night with my best friend. I’m so glad that I came tonight and that we talked things through, even though I told her another lie. But there’s nothing else I could do.

I’m happy again and that’s all I could ask for right now.



So Niall didn't tell her the you guys agree with that? Let me know your thoughts!

Some big drama coming up within the next couple of parts! Stay tuned! :)

OMG OMG OMG WHO ELSE HAS SEEN THE 'ONE WAY OR ANOTHER' VIDEO??? I absolutely love it. Harry's voice in it. Ughhh, so sexy! And Niall was freaking hilarious! And the rest of the boys were so freaking cute. But HARRY AND NIALL!!! GAHHH I've watched it about a bajillion and one times. I LOVE IT!



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