Gotta Be You

I know how they both feel and now all that’s left to do is to find out how I feel.

And right now, my heart is stuck in the middle of a tug-o-war. Niall pulling hard on one side and Harry pulling just as hard on the other.


42. Home, Reunions & Surprises

Isla's POV


I took a deep breath and looked out the front window as I waited for Niall to start talking and asking questions. He'd most likely ask the same questions as Harry did.

"So, you excited to go home?"

I whipped my head towards Niall and stared at him with surprise. This was totally not what I expected him to say.

He looked at me quickly when he realized that I hadn't replied yet before facing the road again.

"What's wrong?" he asked.

I shook my head as a small smile crept on my face. "Nothing. I was just surprised."

"About what?"

I paused to think about how I could explain to him how nervous I was when he said he wanted to talk. I shrugged before turning my attention to him again.

"I don't know," I said. "I just thought that you wanted to talk about something else."

"Like what?"

I mentally face-palmed myself. Why did I have to say that? I should have just left it and answered his first question.

"I thought that you would, you know, wanna talk"

Niall's face turned serious for a second but then it softened before he gave me a small smile.

"I mean, you said you were glad that Zayn was sleeping so that we could have the chance to talk," I explained.

He chuckled. "I meant that I'm glad he's sleeping so I can have this whole car ride to talk to you without him annoying us." He grinned at me and I couldn't help but smile back.

Relief washed through me at his words and I finally relaxed in my seat. "Oh," I said. "Okay. I was so worried. I mean, not that I didn't want to talk about us. I do but I didn't want to right now. I mean, I do but, you know, I just--"

"Isla, it's okay," Niall said, laughing. "Stop rambling."

I grinned at him, still feeling embarrassed.

"I mean, I do want to talk," he said, "but I thought we'd save that for later. I want to enjoy our first time alone together first and not talk about serious stuff yet."

The smile on my face grew as I looked over at my best friend. I felt relieved that he didn't want to talk about certain things right now. I don't think I could handle it after my talk with Harry and the near-kiss I had with him at the gas station. I needed to clear my head first.

"Sounds good to me," I said. "And, yeah, I'm so excited to finally go home. I miss the girls so much. And my family." My smile disappeared as I remembered how I was forced to cut off interactions with my parents. I needed to see them soon.

"Hey, Niall?"

He looked over at me. "Yeah?"

"Is it okay if we visit my parents sometime soon? It's just...James forbid me from having any contact with them and I owe them an explanation."

He looked at me with a sympathetic look before placing one of his hands on my knee.

"Of course," he said. "I'm so sorry he did that. It must've been hard."

I just nodded.

"We'll see when we have time to pay them a visit. I'm sure they'll be happy to see you after all this time."

I haven't seen them that much since I moved out since they live 8 hours away and I would have to fly to see them. But even when I was living with them, I rarely saw them since they were working most of the time or they were at business meetings. And then when they were home, they would be too tired to go out or spend time with me. I wasn't upset with them about it, I know they worked hard to pay for our house, our food, for my school and for everything else. I just wished that they would've spent more time with me when I was younger, when they had more free time and when parent-child bonding time was essential. But it's all in the past and they're still my parents. I love them more than anything and I think that visiting them is the right thing to do.

"So they don't know what happened?"

I shook my head. "No."

Truth was, I was scared to tell them. I don't know how they'd react. Would they feel bad for me? Would they be angry with me? I just hope that they will understand.

"Are you going to tell them?"

"I think I should," I said. "Of course, it'll be hard but I need their support to help me through this."

I placed my hand on top of his that was still placed on my knee.

"I know I have you and everyone else to support me," I said, giving him a smile. "I just think I need my parent's support, as well."

He nodded his head. "Of course. I understand. If you need me, I can be there with you when you tell them."

"Thanks," was all I said. I didn't technically agree or disagree with his offer. I'd just have to see how things go once I get to my parent's house.

Suddenly, Niall's expression turned to wariness as he kept his eyes on the road.

"Are you just going to tell them about what happened when you left...or are you going to tell them about what happened before? The reason that you left."

I looked at Niall and understood why he was suddenly feeling nervous. I gently rubbed his hand that I was still holding and gave him a reassuring smile.

"Yes, I'm going to tell them everything," I said. Worry flashed through Niall's face. "But I'm not going to put the blame on anyone. Not you. Not Harry. Not anyone else. It's all in the past and once I found out why you guys kept the truth from me, I'm sure they'll understand, too."

I saw an ounce of relief wash through Niall's face but there was still a hint of guilt written on it so I just continued to rub his hand soothingly.

"Where am I going to stay now?" I asked. This thought had been worrying me since the car ride begun. I was worried that I would have no one to stay with or things would be awkward if I stayed with Niall or Harry. I know it wouldn't be awkward for me but I didn't know whether it would be awkward for them.

"Oh, yeah, me and the lads were talking about it and we thought that you would be most comfortable right now if you stayed at Lou and El's place for a while. They have a guest room and they're more than happy to let you stay with them."

Relief washed through me. They were right. I think that that would be the best place for me to stay right now. It'd allow me to clear my head and think about things without any distractions.

I smiled at Niall. "I think that'd be lovely."

Silence filled the car. The only sounds were the music coming from the radio and Zayn's light snores. I watched as the scenery changed from farms to houses and buildings and knew that we were almost home.

It already felt like it'd been days since I left Presteigne instead of just mere hours. I still felt tired but I was also feeling ecstatic about finally going home. Seeing all of my friends. Seeing the familiar environment and being in the place that I call home.

I was snapped from my thoughts when I felt Niall squeeze my hand, which was now intertwined with mine. I looked over at him and saw sadness fill his eyes.

"What's wrong, Niall?" I asked. Worry and curiousity filling every word.

"Are...are you okay?" he asked. My eyebrows scrunched in confusion at his question. "I mean, with everything that you went through, you probably can't be handling it all too well. I'm just worried don't trust us anymore. That you don't trust me."

I felt my heart strain in my chest as I held onto his hand tighter.

"Niall. Of course I still trust you. I mean, at first, when I found out the truth, I felt every ounce of trust I had with each of you being thrown out the window. was just because of everything that had happened. It was too much for me. But once I saw you and the rest of the boys at that party, I knew that all of my doubts I had about how much you cared for me and the doubts that I had towards the trust I had in you were thrown out the window. You came for me. You saved me. And that's all I needed to happen to know that you'll always there for me and you always have been. And I'm sure that I'll be kicking myself on my head once I find out why you kept the truth from me, that you did it because you had a good reason and that you cared for me."

I saw Niall relax as I kept my eyes on him. It was nice to hear that Niall was still worried about me after what happened but I didn't want him to anymore. Being here with him and the rest of the boys was enough for me to push my worries away.

"I'm fine, Niall. I mean, sure, it's affected me but it'll only make me stronger and it made me learn from my mistakes. I just have to take it one day at a time and soon, it'll be nothing but a memory kept locked in the back of my mind."

"Okay, I was just worried. And I'll always be here for you no matter what. I'll help you through this. We all will."

I just smiled at him as his face brightened.

"We're almost home," he said. I looked out the window and soon enough I saw the "Welcome to London" sign. I felt excitement grow inside of me as we entered London. I was finally home. And in just a few minutes, I'd be reunited with the rest of my friends.

"Oh and we have a surprise for you once we get to Lou and El's place. I wasn't supposed to say anything but I thought that you'd want to prepare yourself."

"What is it?" I asked, jumping up and down on my seat. I felt like I was going to explode with excitement now.

"You'll have to wait and see." He just smiled at me before facing the road again.

We were finally driving in Lou and El's familiar neighbourhood and I started fidgeting in my seat. I just wanted to get to their house and see everyone. And I wanted to find out the surprise.

We turned onto their street and we drove along the road until we pulled up into Lou and El's driveway.

"We're here," Niall said. I looked up at the familiar house and couldn't help the huge smile growing on my face. "Welcome home."

Suddenly, I saw the front door open and three girls rushing out.

Eleanor. Danielle. Perrie.

I quickly opened my door and hopped out. I rushed around the car and ran towards the girls.

"Isla!" they chorused together. Tears filled my eyes and I couldn't make words come out of my mouth. I was just so happy to see them.

We finally reached each other before colliding into a group hug. I felt three pairs of arms wrap tightly around me as we all cried together. Happy tears, of course.

"Isla, we missed you so much," I heard Perrie say from beside me.

"We're so glad you're back," Danielle said right after.

The hug lasted for about a minute before we finally pulled back. I turned to Perrie and gave her another hug.

"I missed you, too, Perrie," I said through my tears. I pulled back and gave her a smile.

I turned to Danielle and gave her a hug as well. "I miss you so much, Danielle."

"I missed you, too. And the other dancers miss you, too. Come dance with us again."

I pulled back and smiled at her. "I will. I've missed dancing, especially with you. I'll come back as soon as I can." She just smiled and nodded.

I finally turned to Eleanor and I saw her red, puffy eyes and red cheeks and she was biting her lip, holding back tears. I walked up to her and pulled her into my arms. She started sobbing causing more tears to run down my own face.

"El, please don't cry. I'm here now. I'm so sorry I left." She pulled her head back to look at me. She was now hiccupping as the sobs died down.

"I missed you so much," she said in gasps. "I thought I'd never see you again. I cried for days after you left." A smile finally formed on her face. "But I'm glad you're back. I'm glad I have my best friend back."

I just continued to smile at her before I pulled her in for another hug. I missed this girl so much. I missed having someone to talk to. Someone I could tell everything to. Someone who would understand in a way that Niall or Harry or any of my other guy friends wouldn't.

I pulled back and turned my head around to see the boys all standing together watching us with happy faces. Liam and Zayn went over to their girlfriends and greeted each other after being away for two days. Louis waited until me and El pulled away from our hug before she walked up to Louis and hugged him.

I smiled at them and soon my gaze fell on Niall and Harry who were looking at me.

"Are you ready for your surprise?" Niall said.

Harry whacked him on the head. "You told her?"

I giggled as I saw Niall rubbing the back of his head. "Ow! Calm down. I didn't tell her the actual surprise. I just told her there was one."

Harry just shook his head but I knew that he was just teasing Niall.

"I want to know what the surprise is," I said, bouncing up and down on my tippy toes.

"Come inside and say hi to everyone first," El said, walking up to me and holding my hand and together, she pulled me and Louis towards the house.

"Who's here?" I asked.

"Josh, Sandy, Dan, Jon, Andy, Lou and some of your friends from school and dance," El answered.

I wasn't able to take it all in because soon we were stepping into the house. As I looked in front of me, I saw everyone smiling back at me.


Long time, no see!"

"So glad you're back!"

"We missed you!"

I was engulfed in a million hugs and some kisses on the cheek as I said 'Hi' to everyone. I felt myself getting happier by the second as I talked to each person. It felt like years since I've seen them. I know I took them for granted but I'm lucky to have them in my life and I won't mess things up again.

Of course, only the boys' band and Lou knew about what had happened before I left, when the boys, El, Perrie and Danielle kept secrets from me but none of them knew of the dark times in Presteigne and I didn't want to burden them with the story. I was also worried that they would think differently of me or act differently around me. However, knowing them, I know they wouldn't. That's why I'm glad to have them as friends.

As soon as I talked to everyone, they continued on with the little get-together and I walked over to Louis and El.

"So, was this the surprise? Cause Louis already told me about it?" They laughed and I laughed along with them.

"No, this wasn't the surprise," El said, shaking her head.

"So, what's the surprise then?" I asked. I was incredibly anxious now.

They just looked at each other with small smiles before looking back at me and then behind me.


I froze in my spot as I heard a familiar voice behind me. Tears immediately built up in my eyes. I slowly turned around and came face-to-face with two people I've been wanting to see in a long time.

"Mum? Dad?"

They both had huge smiles on their faces and tears were falling down my mum's cheeks. She opened her arms and I instantly walked up and hugged her. I started sobbing as I felt my dad hugging both of us. Together, we just hugged and cried, taking in this moment that's been long overdue. I know that I still have to talk to them about everything but I decided to put that in the back of my mind right now and just enjoy being with them again right now.

"I missed you so much, Mum, Dad," I said once I was able to calm down.

"We missed you, too, dear," my mum said. I pulled back and just held onto their hands.

And I knew that she was being sincere. Her tears and the fact that they were actually here was proof.

I thought this day couldn't get any better and it did once I saw my parents in front of me. And I knew who to thank for bringing them here. The people standing behind me, watching us. My friends.

The special group of people I've been blessed to have in my life. The people I regretted leaving behind. The people I regretted hurting more than they know.

The people that I love more than anything in the world.










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