What Are The Odds

Estrella is just a regular teenage girl that is lusting over Harry Styles from the boy band One Direction. She's a realist and knows that she would never get the chance but little did she know that fate would be on her side. She bumps into Harry at the mall but doesn't confess to knowing who he is. Will she tell him the truth about knowing who he is and will she tell him about her troubled past in order to let their relationship bloom.

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16. Tears

 

Estrella’s P.O.V

“Miss me much?”

“How did you know?”

“Well I’m guessing that you missed me a bunch because you keep staring at me. Did you forget what I looked like while I was away?”

“I could never forget that beauty of yours.”

I couldn’t help but blush. Not wanting him to see me blushing I turned my face away from his direction but I could still feel him staring at me. The last time I was here I was getting stared at but it was a stare of disgust by my ex and this time it was a different stare, it was a stare full of admiration. I couldn’t help but lick my lips because I just haven’t kicked that habit yet and it’s the reason that you will never see me wearing anything but Chap Stick on my lips. I always got compliments on my lips and that’s why they are my favorite feature and I take good care of them. As I licked my l noticed that Harry was now staring at them. What I would give to be able to have Edward Cullen’s ability to read minds right now, but knowing my luck he would have a mind like Bella and I wouldn’t be able to read it.

“Harry you’re doing it again.”

“Oh sorry. Dig in!”

Great I need to eat all of this food. Maybe if we get into deep conversation he won’t notice if I don’t eat much. I tried to eat as much as I could but could only take two bites because I just couldn’t find it in me to eat. Every time I looked at the food I wanted to stick my fingers down my throat and I kept hearing my ex calling me a pig. I just hope Harry is really into our conversation so that he doesn’t notice and question me about it. If he did though I would answer him truthfully. I decided that if he asked me something I would answer it with all honesty, even if he asks about one direction again.

“So I remember Jade saying that you use to come here a lot. Who did you use to come here with?”

Come on Estrella, Honesty. I never really talked to Harry about my real father because even though he’s been out of my life since the 9th grade it’s still a sensitive subject. I knew as soon as I told him I came here with my dad it was going to open a whole can of worms and more skeletons in my closet. Was I ready to be complete honest with a boy that I hardly know?

“With my dad.”

“So your real dad, where’s he at?”

Here we go. I was getting ready to spill my guts when I got saved by jade screaming in Japanese. I saw the confused look on Harry’s face and I couldn’t help but laugh. Gosh why did he have to be so fucking cute?

“She said that it’s singing time.”

“Sorry I keep forgetting that you’re the only one that can understand me. Let’s try this again shall we?” Jade said.

She then started to walk out where she came from and reappeared.

“OKAY IT’S SINGING TIME!  Is that better?”

Harry and I started to crack up. I had to remind myself to thank Jade for the interruption.

“So I downloaded your new song that you’re obsessed with Estrella. Please tell me that am enough motivation for you to go up there?”Jade said.

Honestly I was ready to do anything to get away from the conversation I was about to have with Harry. That plus I’m such a people pleaser, one of my many flaws.

“Fine! But only because I really love that song and plus you did the puppy dog face and you know I’m a sucker for that!”

 As I went up to the mic I was having a mini panic attack. I can’t believe I’m doing this shit. Am I REALLY going to sing in front of fucking Harry Edward Styles, IM I THAT CRAZY?!?! DON’T DO IT ESTRELLA! I was getting ready to back down when I heard him cheering me on.

“YEAAAA GO ESTRELLA!”

Just those words in his cute little accent made me feel more secure.

“Whoa! Calm down everybody, what a great turn out we have tonight. TWO WHOLE PEOPLE! I think I’ve officially reached pop star status.”

And with my little rant out of the way the music began to play. I closed my eyes and just pretended that I was in the shower singing with no one watching. I loved this song because it was a reflection of me.  As I continued on hitting every note and singing every word I kept getting flashbacks.  Valentine’s day freshman year; the year my father left, my ex yelling at me, me on my knees wiping my mouth clean from the vomit while the water was running because I didn’t want my mom to hear what I was doing. As I sang the last verse I couldn’t hold it in anymore I felt the tears coming out.

“Will you love me? Ohh Everybody’s got a dark side. Do you love me? Can you love mine?

Nobody’s a picture perfect, but we’re worth it, you know that we’re worth it Will you love me? Even with my dark side? “

As soon as the music stopped he came over to me and gave me a hug. I would usually hate myself for making myself cry in front of anyone but right now I could care less. I had to let these tears out and I’m glad I had Harry there to comfort me.

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