What Are The Odds

Estrella is just a regular teenage girl that is lusting over Harry Styles from the boy band One Direction. She's a realist and knows that she would never get the chance but little did she know that fate would be on her side. She bumps into Harry at the mall but doesn't confess to knowing who he is. Will she tell him the truth about knowing who he is and will she tell him about her troubled past in order to let their relationship bloom.


20. Natasha's Past


Estrella’s P.O.V

I woke up this morning early, which is a surprise considering I’m not a morning person AT ALL! I checked my phone and I still had nothing from Natasha. I was starting to really worry so I got dress so I can head over to her condo before it was time to get ready to go to the hotel with Harry. I put my hair in a messy bun since it had all these knots in it from all the hairspray I had it in last night, which is not going to be fun to detangle later on. I went to my drawer and pulled out some sweats and a tank. On my way out I went to stop by mom and step dad’s room. She wasn’t there so most likely a case came up. The one thing I hated about her job is that her schedule was so unpredictable. I can’t count how many time she has missed a holiday or a birthday but of course I still loved her cause at least she tried to make or she would at least call… unlike my so called father who ran away like a coward. I went down stairs found my shoes and as I walked out the door I saw a note taped it to it.

Hello my sunshine,

A case came up and I don’t know what time I will me coming back home. I love you and I’m going to be calling to check in SO ANSWER YOUR PHONE! You know if you don’t I’ll just track you down. If your hanging out with Harry today be careful, don’t do anything stupid. I love you.

Mami <3             

I couldn’t help but smile. I loved when she left cute little notes, even if in them she threatened me. I locked the house up and got in my car. In about 10 minutes I was at Natasha’s condo. She lives by herself, she invited me to go live with her after her and her boyfriend splitted but my mom was not fond of that idea. I still had a key to her place though for emergencies. I ran the doorbell and got no reply but I knew someone was home because I heard music blasting. I used my key to get in and the music was coming from the shower. As soon as I heard the song I knew what today was. I couldn’t believe I forgot, I guess the date last night had me space out. I went in the bathroom to find Natasha sitting in the shower with her arms wrapped around her legs crying her eyes out. At the moment I didn’t care if she was soaking wet still in the shower, she’s my best friend and she was in pain, she needed me. I jumped in and just held her.

“Natasha you can get through this.”

“She would have been2 years old.” was all she said through all her sobbing.

Natasha’s P.O.V

I was listening to this song while writing this. Here’s the song to listen to while reading it.



All night I couldn’t sleep. While my best friend was out, most likely having a ball on her date I was stuck at home in this empty condo full of haunting memories. I needed sleep; I needed a break from all of these thoughts in my head. I took swigs of cough syrup until the next thing I knew I woke up to the bright sun. Yes Estrella has her skeletons but I have mine. Two years ago I was in a relationship with the guy that I swore was the love of my life, Nick. Even thinking about his name makes me so angry. I found out after our one year anniversary that I was pregnant. It was a shock but I was prepared to love my baby with all of my heart. That wasn’t the plan that Nick had, he wanted me to get an abortion, when I refused he dumped me.

“I GAVE YOU EVERYTHING YOU ASSHOLE.” I said to him while he walked out the door, dodging the glass that I threw at him.

Nick was my first everything, first boyfriend, first love, first lover… but certainly not the last. Since everything I admit I’ve been around. I never told anyone but I went around having sex secretly hoping that for some reason the condom we used would break so I can get pregnant again, so I knew that I would have someone who would ALWAYS love me because I was their mother.  I told my parents and they left me in the dust. They wanted the same thing that Nick did, they wanted me to get rid of “it”. I still remember the last words I ever said to my parents.


I would never have gotten through all of this without Estrella. I called her and she picked me up from my “house” when I called her crying. Her mother took me in with open arms. I worked my ass off and got enough money to get this condo for me and my little blessing in disguise. I often wondered how someone can love a person SO MUCH that they never even met. I knew that I would do ANYTHING for her… yes I was having a girl. My little Anastasia Estrella. When I told Estrella her middle name and to be the God mother she almost flipped out.

“Me? Really?”

“You’re the only person who has stood by my side through all of this. I love you sissy.”

One night I was just watching TV when I started getting stomach pain. At first I thought it was just something that I ate but it started to get worse. I went to the bathroom and when I looked down at my white joggings I saw blood. I called 911 and they came and drove me to the hospital. Anastasia never got to show her beautiful face to anyone. My life has never been the same since that day. No one can see it because I put up this front but there is not one day that I don’t question if it was my fault. Was it something I did? Something I ate? Of course the doctors told me that it wasn’t anything that I did, that sometimes these things just happen. WHY ME! WHY HER! That’s all I kept asking myself and God. Today’s the anniversary of the day I lost my princess. It’s been TWO YEARS! I thought that by now the pain would go away, or hurt a little less but it stays there with me. Every day I struggle to get up out of bed. Once in a while I admit that I open her room and look at everything that I had bought for her, thinking about how much she would love that toy or how cute she would look in that outfit. I even tried to get Estrella to move in with me cause then I would have a good excuse to finally get rid of it but of course my mom wasn’t going to let that happen. I took my iPod this morning, turned it on the song I’ve been putting on since last year, turned on the shower and blasted it on my dock. I couldn’t help but just break as soon as I stood in the shower. Next thing I knew Estrella was holding me. That’s the best quality about her, even though she’s just as broken as me she always tries to pick my pieces instead of hers. For that I will be forever grateful. 

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