I'll Be Your Soldier

A story about 18 year old Colette Larsen finding herself falling for the 19 year old boy band member Niall Horan. Can love truly conquer all or will the evils of fame be too much for this average girl to handle? Tears will be shed, fists will be thrown, songs will be sung. A story about learning how to love again, a story about your first real love.


5. He Really Messed Up


A/N Okay here is the next chapter :) Please leave your reviews in a comment!



Chapter 5 - He Really Messed Up


Colette Larsen P.O.V


Elliot took me home and told me he would cover for me at work. I thanked him and walked up to the flat. My eyes were red and puffy, my nose was stuffed and red from rubbing it, and my cheeks were strained by the tears. I prayed to God that Heather wasn’t home, she didn’t need to see me like this.


I opened the door and sure enough Heather was sitting at the kitchen table, head phones in and working on some kind of school work. Her head popped up when she heard the door close behind me. She immediately got up, concern all of her face, wrapped her arms around me while I gave in and cried into her shoulder.


“Who’s ass do I need to kick?” She asked. She was serious, I knew she was but I laughed a little.


“Has someone you thought you could trust ever not tell you something and then the truth comes out and you are sitting there like an idiot kicking yourself for believing an act.” I asked her once the tears started to calm down.


She kept her arms around me when she said, “It’s Niall isn’t it? What did he do? I swear to God if he hurt you, Elliot and I will beat the living shit out of him.”


I was past the point of shock now, but I was heading into full blown rage. 


“He played me! He made me feel like I had when I was with Christopher! But none of it was real! He was just going to leave me here with these feelings while he goes all over the world with his stupid, famous, band! He was just going to leave me here with this pain in my stomach the size of Texas and kicking myself for putting my heart on the line again! God! Why am I so stupid Heather?!”


“You aren’t stupid Lette! The people around you are stupid, they don’t see what is in front of them and they think if they leave they won’t be to blame! Christopher was a jackass! Your dad was a jackass! This Niall is jackass too! Okay- wait. ‘famous band’?”

I nodded. We sat on the couch of our small living room and I went on to explain to her how Niall was in a band and how I was feeling so betrayed. Betrayed? Seriously Colette? You have know this guy for what 24 hours? The voice had a point, why was I so mad at this? It’s not like our friendship was going to evolve into anything. It certainly isn’t now, the boy is famous for Christ sake! It would never work...why did that make me so sad?


“It sounds like he was just trying to protect you.” She said to me snapping me out of my mental conversation with myself. I gaped at her. Was she really siding with him?


“What!?” I asked her.

“Well sure it was wrong of him to lie but have you let him explain himself?” I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. She was supposed to side with me.


Maybe you should listen to him... I shut the voice in my head up and continued to glare at Heather.


“Or maybe we can beat the shit out of him!” She quickly saved herself.


I smiled at her and made my way to my bedroom. I need to lay down. I glanced at my phone and saw I had 2 messages. One was from Avia it read,


“Cole! Did you see 1D on the Today Show? Mom let me stay home from school to see it. They were so gooood! (: Say hi to Elliot for me (; Love you xx”


I laughed, Avia had a bit of a crush on Elliot ever since she saw the facebook picture I put of us up. I sighed at the mention of the band but got the strength to reply. 


“Didn’t catch it, I’m sure they were great Via. Haha, I will let him know (;. Love you too xx”


She didn’t need to know about Niall, nor was I really willing to explain it to anyone else. The next message was from none other than the Irish bastard himself.


“Hi Lette (:. Whatcha up to? My room mate Louis put the movie Grease in for the 10000 time so I am bored out of my mind. Haha.”


I felt the anger boiling up and my grip on the phone got tighter. He had such nerve! Texting me right after he finished performing and coming and texting me. Did he ever plan on telling me he was famous and girls all over the world would kill to be the one he was texting!?


I didn’t think before acting. I tended to do that when I was angry. I typed a response and hit send. I turned around and walked to the shower. I needed to relax.



Niall Horan P.O.V


“Oh hi. Not really doing anything special. Watched the Today Show today, One Direction performed. Ever heard of them Niall?”


Oh God no. She knew. She had seen the performance, I don’t know why I didn’t think she would have seen it. Of course she was watching! Gaa! I felt like a jerk! That’s it I blue it. There was no chance I would ever make this girl mine. I had lost my chance. She probably hates me now! Jesus, I hate me now! I should have told her the day I met her! But nooo, I had to be a coward and make up a huge lie!


I replied to her text hoping she would let me explain.


“You saw. Please let me explain?”


I got no response, so I tried again.


“Colette please respond? Let me explain why reasons for not telling you?”


Still nothing. I was getting angry at this point. Why was she not listening to me? Did she hate me that much?


“Lette, please?”


I gave up texting her so I called. Once, twice, three times, on the fourth call I gave up. I walked into the room Liam and I shared and punched the wall. Not hard enough to make a scratch on the wall what so ever, but enough to make me yell out in pain and clutch my hand. That just made me angrier.


“Woah, woah woah! Niall what’s gotten into you mate?!” Liam asked coming into the room. Surely he had heard the long bang and then my yelling. 


“She knows! She found out about the band through watching the Today Show! She probably thinks I didn’t care enough to tell her to her face. A T.V. show Liam! She found out through a T.V. show! Now she isn’t answering her texts or phone calls! I blue my chance man.” I said sitting down on the bed. 


I just wish I could see her again, see her smile and let me explain everything to her. 


“I’m sorry mate.” Liam said solemnly patting me on the back and taking a seat next to me.

“I’ve never seen you this way over a girl Ny. You really like her don’t you?” He asked me.

I nodded my head. “She was so easy to talk to that day in the cafe, it was if I had known her for so much longer. I thought of her hating me just got to me I guess.” I said gesturing to my hand that was now a bit swollen but you could barely tell. Should be better by tomorrow I guessed. 


“Then find a way to explain to her. Apologize Niall, make her see you aren’t some stuck up musician that picks up girls and then dumps them.” Liam told me. 


He was right. I knew he was right and I wanted to do just that, I just had no idea how I was going to get a hold of her. She was ignoring me. 


Just then my phone starting ringing. I jumped up, ran to my phone, answering it immediately not even looking at the caller I.D.


“Hello? Colette?” I asked into the phone. 


“Niall? Um...hi, this is Heather Simonian...” 


Chapter 6 - I’m So Sorry 


Niall Horan P.O.V


“I am a friend of Colette’s.” The voice replied in a hesitant and shy voice. Then I remembered, Colette had told me about Heather, she was her best friend and room mate that was in Culinary School I think.


“Oh hi Heather, sorry to be rude but can you try to get Colette on the phone please?” I asked Heather


“Actually she is in the shower right now, that’s how I was able to get your number off her phone. Listen, she told me she found out you lied to her about you being famous and all and she was really upset. Not by the fact that you were famous, just that you lied to her about it. She has been through a lot Niall, she has put her trust in people that just let her fall. I have half a mind to get my older, strong, big brothers down to your hotel and beat the shit out of you for making her feel like a piece of trash today but the other half is telling me to tell you that you need to make this right. I will text you our address so that you can get your ass over here and apologize to her. I am not asking you to, I am telling you too. Move whatever rock star plans you have and apologize to Colette. Okay?” She told me. I let her talk and just listened to what she had to say. I was quick to reply.


“Yes! Yes please! Please text me the address, I really want to make this right. I had no intention of her finding out that way, I was honestly going to tell her tonight but the Today Show beat me too it and I feel terrible about it. Thank you so much for calling Heather.” 


“Thank me after you two make up, I saw it in her eyes..she cares about you Niall, don’t fuck it up. Oh God, she’s coming! Text you later. Bye!”


“Okay, bye!” I said quickly into the phone. 


I smiled at myself. I was going to see her again. I was going to be able to explain. I did a little dance but then suddenly got nervous. What was I going to say? ‘Oh hey babe sorry I didn’t tell you I was an international superstar and you had to find out through the tele. But hey wanna go out sometime?‘  Ugh. I thought back to what Heather had said...who had let Colette fall? The thought of someone hurting her made my fists clench. Then I realized, I had hurt her today. I felt like a douche again. No, no, you are going to explain everything today and she is going to forgive you Niall, everything is okay. I silently told myself. 


“Everything alright Ny?” I heard Liam ask, I had forgotten he was there. 

“Yeah, that was Colette’s best friend, she is gonna text me their address so I can go over and explain everything.” I told him with a smile.


“Oh good! That’s awesome! Have you thought of what you’re going to say?” He asked me

“Um, yeah, but I don’t know how she is going to take it, I guess that really what I am freaking out about.” I confessed.

“Don’t think about it too much alright? I’m sure everything will work out.” Liam told me, he always knew how to calm everyone down. 




My phone buzzed and I checked it. It was a message from an unknown number.


“Hey Niall, it’s Heather. This is the address 8918 Trunkett St. 3rd floor apartment 4B. You can come over now if you want, I am leaving soon so it will just be you guys.” 


I saved the number into my phone just in case I ever needed it again. This Heather was amazing, I had to thank her a 100 more times for this. 


“Okay, I will head over now. Thank you sooo much again.”


I checked myself in the mirror. I was wearing black jeans, a grey Volcum shirt, a grey snapback and my converse. I grabbed my black ray bands just in case there were fans outside. I walked out of my room and headed for the door.


“Oi! Where you headed?” Louis asked looking up from his spot on the couch.

“Gonna go see Colette, be back later.” I said quickly grabbing my wallet from the counter.

“Ooooo! Niall’s gotta a hot date! Harry! Niall’s got a hot date!” He yelled to Harry.

“Awww! Our little boy is going up.” Harry teased wiping away a fake tear from his eye and slinging his arm around Louis. 

I rolled my eyes at Larry Stylinson and walked out the door. 




Thankfully there weren’t many fans outside so I was able to get into a cab quick and he took my to the address I told me. He stopped the cab outside a very New York styled apartment building, could have been something straight out of Friends. I tipped the cab driver said my thank yous and walked up the stairs of the building. 


I got to the 3rd floor and was making my way down the hall. 2B...3B....ah..4B. There it is. I saw a note on top of the welcome mat. I said ‘Niall’ in a very girly handwriting. I picked it up and inside it said, 


“The door is open, so head right in. Good Luck :). - Heather”


I put the note in my pocket and carefully opened the front door.


The first thing I saw was the living room, it was simple. A blue couch with a coffee table in front of it and a T.V. on the wall. There were some photo graphs on the wall of Colette and another arbun haired girl that I assumed was Heather. Some bookshelves filled with movies, music and books. I looked to the right and there was a small kitchen with blue cupboards. I slowly made my way to the living room and took a seat on the couch. There was a hallway on either side of the living room that I assumed lead to the girl’s bedrooms. I heard footsteps and then a door opening and I knew Colette was coming down the hallway and I was out of time to think of what to say. 


I looked up and I saw her standing in front of me, shock and confusion written on her face. Her hair was still a bit damp from her shower and was up in a bun on the top of her head. She was wearing grey sweat pants that were rolled up at her waist and riding low on her hips, a black tank top with a white poncho top over it. She was wearing a little makeup on her eyes but barely any on her face. She was absolutely gorgeous. 


“Niall.” She said. Snapping me out of gawking at her. I coughed and stood up.

“Colette.” I said looking at her uncomfortably. 

“How do you know where I live?” She asked me. It didn’t sound like she was mad at me like Heather had said, but I’m sure she was still mad at the situation because her eyes held no emotion and her smile was no where to be seen.


“Heather called me and gave me the address.” I started to explain to her.

“Oh.” Was all she said and shifted uncomfortably from side to side.


“Listen Colette, I am really, really sorry about how you found out about me. I promise you I was going to tell you tonight when you came over. I had no intention of hurting you, I really care about you, I know that’s crazy to say giving that we have only know each other for a short time, but I feel like I have known you forever when we talk. I know I messed up big time and I know you probably are still pissed about it but I just need you to know I am sorry.” I spat out. I held my breath waiting for her to say something. When she didn’t I talked again.


“Heather told me people you trusted in the past have let you down, maybe it wasn’t her place to tell me that but she did. She didn’t go into specific events or people but all I know is that when she told me people had hurt you I hated myself, I was someone who had hurt you and I need you to know how sorry I am.” Again she said nothing. She just went on looking at the floor. I tried one more time.


“I’m not a stuck up rock star if that’s what you are thinking. I’m not any different than the guy you met at Starbucks. I have just a normal guy that was giving an amazing opportunity.”. She still said nothing. This pissed me off. I had poured so much emotion into the last couple minutes of talking to her and she said nothing. I walked over to her. 


I tilted her head up to look into her eyes with my finger. She was crying. It broke my heart. 


“Please say something love?” I whispered to her. Searching her eyes for something I don’t even know.


“I’m so sorry.” I whispered back. Then she wrapped her arms around me and cried. I held her there. I wrapped my arms around her small frame and let her cry into my chest.


“I’m so, so sorry. I was such a bitch.” She mumbled into my shirt.


“No, no love. You have nothing to apologize for.” I told her rubbing up and down her back. “I’m the one who didn’t tell you when I should have. Please don’t blame yourself, you did nothing wrong.” I reassured her. 


She lifted her head up and whipped her eyes with one hand but keeping her other arm around my back. 


“Yes I do, I jumped to conclusions when I saw you and I didn’t even let you explain. I didn’t respond to your messages, I acted like a brat. I totally misjudged you and I am so sorry for that.” She told me with such honesty in her eyes.




Colette Larsen P.O.V.


 I felt like such an asshole. He was the sweetest thing for coming over here and getting me to listen. I was being such a bitch for not believing he was the nice guy I had met before. But with everything that had happened with Christopher I just guessed history was repeating itself.


He whipped the tears from my cheeks. He didn’t say anything else so I didn’t either, we just held each other. 


I looked into his eyes and I could feel myself falling. 


He looked back at me, his eyes searching for something. His eyes wandered over my face and I suddenly felt self conscious, I probably looked like a snot nosed mess. His eyes finally landed on my lips and then darted back up to my eyes and then to my lips again. 

“Lette..” He leaned in painfully slowly. 

His right hand made it’s way to my cheek while keeping his left arm around my back. I knew what was coming next. His lips centimeters away from mine. I felt my eyes closing.


No, no I can’t! I can’t fall for him!


I turned my head to the side quickly. “Niall.” I breathed. 


He stood up straight looking away embarrassed.

“I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have done that.” He said searching for my eyes again.


“No, I’m sorry...I just...I really like you Niall...you make me feel so happy when I’m around you.  I don’t know why! I mean we only met recently yet I feel so comfortable around you, and that scares me.” I confessed.


He grabbed my hands and lead my over to the couch. He sat down and pulled me down next top him. I crossed my legs in front of me sitting like a little kid and stared down at my hands now in my lap. He reached out and grabbed on of them and held it in his. It felt nice.


“Why does that scare you Lette? I won’t let you fall, I will catch you. I feel the same way about you love.” He asked rubbing small circles in my hand making my stomach flip.


“That’s what he said too...Listen Niall I really like you but can we take it slow? Let’s get to know each other more first okay? Maybe a date?” I asked shyly.


“Colette, are you asking me out?” He teased me. I looked up at him smiling and he winked at me and said,

“I would love to.” His smile gave me butterflies.


A/N Okay, I am going to be a little cruel...I want 5 comments on this chapter or any other chapter I have posted so far and THEN I will update. :) Get commenting babes..xx

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