If Only I Knew (One Direction Not Famous)

Niall and Cindy have known each other since birth, they were best friends since. Their families were very close. By age 14, Cindy's dad got a once in a life time job offering in Ontario, Canada meaning they had to leave Ireland. When Cindy left, Niall was torn, because he had always been in love with her, yet too afraid of what she'll think if he confesses his strong feelings her. 10 years later, Cindy got her Pharmacy degree, and started her career as a Pharmacist. One late night at work, she comes across a familiar face, Niall. Will he finally tell her how she feels? Will it be a "Happily Ever After" ending?

This is my first fan fiction. I hope you like it! xx


28. Confession

Cindy's P.O.V

In the morning I forgot I left my car at Harry's, so I had to call a taxi and figured that I would walk to pick it up at their house. It was a pretty nice day today, it was warm with a nice breeze. I arrived at their flat and my heart started to beat rapidly. I couldn't stop thinking about Harry, but I knew he didn't want to see me. As I opened my car door, Harry walks out of his flat towards his car. I froze as he noticed I was here. 

"Hey...I'm just picking up my car." I said softly. 

"Alright." He replied plainly as he opened the back seat of his car, probably grabbing something. I couldn't take it anymore, I needed to talk to him. I closed my door and walked towards him. He turned around and looked at me. 

"Why won't you talk to me Harry?" I asked, looking at him. He ignored me, closed the back door and started to walk away. I stopped him by grabbing his arm and turned him around, not letting go. "Harry, please talk to me. Why can't we go back to normal?!" I asked. I could feel a bit of tears forming in my eyes. I'm a very emotional person. 

"Cindy, I can't go back with you. No matter how much feelings I have for you, I can't look at you the same way anymore after that incident..." He said, looking down. Why did Niall have to kiss me in the first place?! As I wondered, I got angry. If he hadn't kissed me, I would still be with Harry. I have myself to blame, but he could of stopped himself from kissing me.

I let go of Harry, and walked into the house, ran up the stairs into Niall's room. I shut the door as he put down his guitar.

"Hey..Cindy..what brings you her-"

"Why did you have to kiss me?! Why?!" I asked, cutting him off. "I could of still been with Harry!" I yelled. I couldn't hold in these emotions anymore I had to let it out. He stood up and laughed, shaking his head. 

"You are so oblivious to the world, Cindy." He said, I looked at him with a wondering stare. 

"What are you talking about?" I asked. He looked down and then back up to me.

"You don't get it do you?" 

"Get what?"

"I LOVE YOU. I've always have and always will! Yet, you're TOO blind to fucking see it. You and Harry don't belong with each other. YOU belong with me, and I know you don't regret that kiss because I know you felt the same strong connection I felt!" He shouted, then he took a deep breath. I didn't know what to say, I froze. All this time he loved me and I didn't see it. "You know? I came back from Ireland just for your birthday to confess my love to you, but when I went to the carnival, I saw you and Harry kissing, and it broke me..." He said, I could see tears forming into his eyes.

I was still too shocked to say anything. Come to think of it, I didn't know what to say at all. I could tell he was waiting for a response, but I couldn't find the words. A tear escaped from his eyes and he looked down smiling. "I'm stupid for telling you, because you're probably still going to pick Harry, but I tried. I can't deal with this right now." He said, as he walked out of his room and out the door. 

Tears formed in my eyes and I fell to my knees. I just realized how much I've hurt him, I never felt so horrible in my life. I wiped my tears, and noticed a music sheet on the ground. I read the title, "More Than This" 

I'm broken, do you hear me? I'm blinded, cause you are everything I see.

I'm dancing, alone. I'm praying, that your heart will just turn around.

And as I walk up to your door, my head turns to face the floor cause I can't look you in the eyes and say,

When he opens his arms and holds you close tonight. It just wont feel right, cause I can love you more than this. Yeah.

When he lays you down, I might just die inside, it just don't feel right, cause I can love you more than this. Can love you more than this..

As I read the lyrics, I could tell this song was for me..how could I have not realized it sooner? Then I heard some foot steps behind me. I got up and turned around. It was Harry. I wiped away my tears and stared at him.

"Harry...what are you doing here..?" I asked, in a weak tone. He walked up to me and sat me down on the bed. He stared into my eyes, looking depressed.

"You should go after Niall." He said, softly. 

"What? No, I want you.." I said. He shook his head and looked down.

"Cindy, no you don't. I know deep inside you love Niall...I can see it." He said, I could tell it was hard for him to say that, but a part of me knew he was right. 

"But I have feelings for you too.."

"I know you do, but you have feelings for Niall more. You just keep lying to yourself that you don't and try to keep it inside.." He trailed off, because he was about to cry. He was right, it all made sense to me now. I looked down, trying to hold in my tears but I couldn't. Then I looked at Harry and hugged him tightly.

"There will always be something for you Harry." I cried. I could feel him tightening his arms around me. We stayed like that for a few minutes, then he let go of me. He wiped my tears away and gave me a small grin.

"Go find Niall." He said, taking a deep breath. I stared into his eyes about to cry again, but I knew I had to go find Niall. I gave him a kiss on the cheek and walked out the door.

Harry's P.O.V

It killed me to say what I had to say to Cindy, but Niall deserved her. I never knew he was in love with her, if I did, I would of backed off. No matter how much it hurt me, I just had to let her go. 

Cindy's P.O.V

I went into my car and started to drive. I looked on the side walks to see if he was there. He couldn't have gone that far. Tears were still forming in my eyes, and it got blurry. As I wiped my tears away, I didn't focus on the red light and then it hit me.

Everything went into slow motion as my life flew passed my eyes. Niall, Harry, Michelle, my family and the guys, all these memories flashed into my head. More tears streamed down to the side of my face as I saw people surrounding me with worried faces as I laid down on the road, with shattered glass and blood surrounding me. 


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