1. 1st June
My life is a U turn, I think. Well that's my theory on things I think anyway. One of many I have, one of hundreds actually, I have too many ideas, probably cause I think too much. But I'd rather be happy, then make other people happy. And lately, I've been trying to make other people happy, and for what? That's the thing, I don't know. So, this is when I stop, stop worrying if people like me or not. Cause at the end of the day, if they don't like me, I'm not gonna change. People who can't except who I am are just selfish. By the way, I'm not talking about anyone in particular, this is just the way my mind works. Strange as it might be, this is who I am, and no-one can change that. Like a friend said: My mind is like a tractor, the more I use it, the dirtier it gets.
I thought many people were my friends, but I guess I was wrong, they were just pretending. So they can take advantage of me, even though I am (and I admit it) a horrible person sometimes, doesn't mean I don't have goodness inside of me. Everyone has a core of goodness inside them, and a layer of darkness wrapped around it. But sometimes, it's the other way around, they can act innocent and pure. But really, inside, they're vile and evil. And the thickness of both layers can differ. Some people can with stand a lot, and still be really happy all the time. While others, if you make a false move, just one, they'll snap. Unfortunately, I admit that I am one of those people, who can snap when you least expect it. But it's not like I want to be one of those people, it's the way I was born. And I definitely, can't change that.