I stare at the screen, my heart thumping. This is my worst nightmare.
'Jamie Baker is in a relationship with Jess Dodds'
Thousands of thoughts run through my head. How could he? She stole him! She doesn't even know him. Not like I do. Then I remember. He wasn't really mine in the first place. Only in my dreams. Don't get me wrong, I'm not just one of the hundreds of girls who have a crush on him, who have never even spoken to him. We are best friends. The only thing is, I want more. He just sees right through me.
Jamie and I met when we were four. We were inseparable. Those were the days when he swore he would never fall in love, and I'd just think ' Well I'll be here when you change your mind.' But it didn't happen that way.
He got his first girlfriend in year seven. Everyone had a crush on him, but he picked her. It broke my heart. All he spoke about was her. Then she dumped him and I was there to pick up the pieces. I comforted him and told him there would be someone else, secretly hoping it would be me. But still, he never saw me in that way.
You're probably wondering why I never asked him out? I'm just not that kind of person. I'm too shy, never had a single boyfriend, always hoping Jamie would see me in a new light. Just when I thought he might, a new girl would come into his life, and I would cry myself to sleep. I was always the third wheel, standing in the background, ready for when the relationship would end and I could have him back for a little while.
And now it has happened all over again. I wait for his message, telling me his great news, how beautiful she is, how he loves her already. It's always the same.