They Didn't Recognize Me

This is a story about Lotus. All her life she've been bullied and ignorred in class. She always have had some extra weight and according to her class she isn't beautiful.
But one summer she decides to changed it all. Loose weight, dye her hair, start use make-up - be the one she really is. After her transformation and her 16th birhday suddenly the guys start to be interested in her, but she haven't changed her personality. And she haven't forgot her past.
What would happen to Lotus? What would she do with the guys all of sudden liking her?


4. Almost caught and forgotten pain


After my little fight with Angelo in the cafeteria the chatter at the table was about Angelo and his past. Everyone talked shit about him and told about their experiences with Angelo. I wish I could tell them about all the things he did to me and how he treated me, but I couldn't. If I said what he have done my cover would be broken and I can't let that happen.

“I remember in 6th grade that the school had arranged a trip to a fair and they mixed us up from all the classes,” Sebastian began and looked very serious. Wait, I remember this trip! It was the worst day of my life.. “I got into a group with Angelo, Jade, Skylar, Ryan and then a shy girl from the other class. Then Angelo thought it could be funny to ditch the shy girl at the fair so she would go lost. So he did and threatened us all that if we told anyone he would get us expelled. So we got along with him, even though we all had a bad taste in our mouth about it. So we ditched her and went along with Angelo around the fair.” Everyone listened very interested and so did I. I have no idea why, but I think that girl might have been me. I can't remember all the bad things that have happened to me because I try my best to forget it. And this story Sebastian is telling I feel so deja vu about. Maybe this story is one of the memories I've displaced and forgotten.

“After a while Angelo left us and we went out to search after her. But we looked for her for hours and ended up not trying any of the rides. Then the teacher called us back to the busses to go back and called up all the names. Then the teachers called her name up, wait! I remember her name now, it's Lotus or something like that”. Everyone looked at me and I gaped at Sebastian who said my name. Wait! That WAS me and that story IS mine! Oh my God! I quickly told everyone I moved here from up north so I couldn't been me. Oh my God! Sebastian nearly revealed my secret! After assued it couldn't been my  Sebastian continued on his story. 

“ So Lotus she was missing and the teachers send some other teachers inside the fair again to look after her. They set a search after her and all of sudden Angelo left us. He went back inside and after a few minutes he came out with her. She was wet, cold and to be honest, looked like an homeless percon. Her hair was pointing in every direction and she had dark trenches under her eyes. Her eyes were red and her clothes were so wet she was soaking and the water was dripping down of her. She was shaking and one of her shoes was missing. She had dirt everywhere and she looked so miserable. She had scratches pretty much everywhere and blod stains a couple of places on her body. ” he said and I felt like a heavy stone was laying on my chest. I felt my tears coming back but I did everything in my power to keep them back. If I cried my cover would be broken and I'd go back to being that shy, little girl I used to be. All the memories came flowing back and I felt my body shake. I took a deep breath to calm myself and I luckily worked. I put my attention at Sebastian who was telling my story without knowing it. He continued. 

“ Angelo had his arm around her and I know he had somwthing to do with it. I guess she did something to piss him off or he was just very bored. Angelo had a stone face and didn't change his face expression. He had either set on a poker face to show everyone he's a bad ass or he just didn't feel any remorse what so ever about what he did to her. The teachers looked in horror at her and got her away from the rest of us. And after that they drew her home and we haven't seen her since. I guess what Angelo did to her was so bad she ended up changing school or something, because I haven't seen her in school.”. After that most of the girls was a bit teary eyed and dryed their tears off in their sleeve. Ryan was a bit down and didn't talk at all. I just looked down into the table and I guess he felt really bad about it. Jade and Skylar umma was holding each other and looked really miserable. I felt so bad about all of them. I wish  could tell them that I'm okay now and even though what ever they could've done back then wouldn't change the fact about what happened.  All the memories came flowing back..


“No! Please!” begged as I saw a shadow of a person come near me. I had an excruciating pain coming from my lady parts and the tears was drilling down my chins. I crouched and tried to hide myself. I laid my arms around my knees and the pain was so horrible. I felt dirty, disgusting and the stinging pain from the scratched everywhere made me whine. “Please, I bed you! Go away!” I screamed loudly and felt my body shake. I looked at the shadow which came closer and I felt the anxiety fill my body. If was dark so I could't see who it was or it's face. I slowly crawled back so the person wouldn't come any closer. But after a few second I felt a cold brickwall behind me and couldn't get any further away from the person. The tears was driling down my chins and it came closer to me. I looked terrified at it and I pressed my body against the wall. “G-g-go away!” I screamed and sobbed. The person came closer and went down on it's knees. I could see it was a guy, not much older than me. “P-pleas-se! Not again..” I whispered and laid my arms around myself for protection. The guy went  closer to me and said with a cold voice “I'm not going to hurt you”. I gaped at him but I didn't believe him. They said the same thing and they hurt me. The guy raised his hand and reached it towards me. I looked horrified at it and shook my head. “I promise I wont hurt you” he said with an calming voice and looked at me. I took a deep breath and took his hand. He stood up and helped me get up. As I got up the excruciating pain in my layd parts came back and with force. “Ahh!” I moaned in pain and crouched. The guy laid his strong arm around my waist and held me raised up. I supported myself agaisnt him and he had a strong grip around me. He almost dragged me away from the dark and he said comforting “Don't be scared it'll be okay”. I nodded lightly and looked down to the ground. As we came out of the dark I raised my head. I looked up and viewed his face. I made big eyes and gaped. Oh my God! The guys looked down towards me and his dark brown looked straight into my blue one. I couldn't believe it, how could it be possible? I was.. Angelo.


“Lotus?” I heard a voice call me and I felt someone shook me. I came back from my daydream and cleared my throat. “U-um.. Sorry!” I asnwered and smiled stiff. I saw 9 pairs of eyes staring staight at me and I felt the awkwardness come over me. My cheeks became red and I looked embarrassed down into the table. They all laughed at me and Skylar umma stroke my chin. “Aww, huh? Are we teasing you too much?” she teased and giggled. I nodded and faked a sob face. I looked up in her eyes and giggled. I smiled and I felt a varm feeling in my cheeks. “Aww! You're as red a  tomato!” cried Milo and laughed loud. I shook my head and laughed at him. We heard the bell ring and we went to class. As I walked past Angelo's table he smirked at me and winked. I could literally throw up in that excat moment but I kept it down. I felt an arm around me and I turned my head. As a big surprise I saw the arm belonged to Dominic and he gave Angelo the killer look. I looked at Dominic with my are-you-kidding-look. He send me a smile and I let his arm be there. I felt a form of security and I smiled a little.

Luckily the next class wasn't with Angelo nor his 'ganstar' friends so I was quite happy about that.  All class I couldn't concenstrate at all. My throughts were all about Angelo and what he did back in 6th grade. I can't believe he actually hepled me.. He's not that kind of guy who helps anyone and curtainly not his bully victims! Ugh! Why is he like this? One day he can be helpful and nice and the rest of the days he's a proper cunt! I can't figure him out and I don't know what's up with him. But to be honest I do believe there's some good in him either way he wouldn't have helped me back then. Angelo, he's some weird kid. 

I believe that there's some good in every person and there's defiantly some in Angelo. I just think he's putting on a facade so everyone doesn't get to know him. I don't think even his so called 'friends' know the real Angelo.. They only know his facade and are stupidly enough to believe that's the real Angelo. I wonder how he truly is.. Maybe he's a nice person? Maybe he's actually an awesome percon, who just need a litle love? I don't he get's any love at home, his dad's never home because he's 'da ganstar boss' and need to control what's happening everywhere. And after what I've heard his mom pasted away years ago, so I feel a bit sorry for him. 

Yet he's been a lot it still doesn't give him any right to be such an asshole! Seriously, sometimes he needs to be slapped or something for the things he say and do. But one day I know he'll change.. But it's not gonne be in the nearest future, I'm curtaint about that! A guy can't change over such a short periode of time – espcially not Angelo. 

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