The moment I woke up I felt that something was wrong. No, that's not true. EVERY morning I wake up I feel that something is wrong. That something is missing. Something I can't replace. HE is missing. He's gone and this fact is killing me.

Now you're probably wondering whom I'm talking about. I will tell you. - later. First of all I have to introduce myself. My name is Cassie. Cassie Love. I'm 17 years old and I live in Bradford, England. Every day I wake up I feel lost. And every freaking moment I think it's getting better and i'm over him everything is falling apart.

But let's come to the important part. The part where I tell you who 'he' is and where I start to explain what happened to 'us'.

He is Zayn Malik. Yes, this famous rock star that everybody falls for. He's the one that's gone. He's the one i miss so damn much that it hurts. He's my everything. But now .. he's just a nightmare that keeps me alive. I wish I could finally wake up and see that everything was just a bad dream but I can't .. maybe because it's reality.

But let's start from the beginning. The moment when everything was alright.