Mistakes all over

by , Sunday July 16, 2017
 Mistakes all over

I don't think I will ever learn...

I didn't think it all through and I hope I can trust this guy...

I met this boy online for some weeks ago. He though I was pretty cool, because I'm a gamergirl. (Not the bad kind.. I actually like to play computergames). So we chatted and suddenly he wanted to meet my irl! I was very nervous because I had never tried that before.. So I agreed and he travelled in train for 5 hours to come home to me. He lives in a different part of the country. So he arrived and everything was okay.

We had planned that I would host LAN, which means we play computergames the whole weekend with barely any sleep. Then later the same evening he had arrived he wanted to play this game, cs:go, but I'm not very good at the game and therefor we couldn't play together, because the rank system doesn't allow that, so we had to find 3 more people to play with. He started to ask around his friends and I asked mine and my friends wanted to play.

The only problem is that I don't like to play cs:go with my friends, because they always yell at me.. I told my friend, there were visting, that my friends didn't like to play with me and that they always yelled and me... Then I kept talking about how bad they talked to each other while playing and I started to tell him about my problems.. Like the time when I broke up with my ex and how they just abandoned me and so on... I guess it was pretty negative all the stuff I said.. I tried to get out of the situation, so I didn't have to play with them.. And get yelled at...

It didn't help... He still wanted to play with them.. So we did.. And I was right.. I got yelled at.. Not as much as normal (they wanted to seem nice for the new guy or something I guess).. 

We lost all our games... We came against hackers and well it just didn't go well... 

But my visiting friend became good friends with my friends... And they started to chat a lot over Steam (a game laucher, where u can buy and play games). It sucked a lot.. I haven't even heard from my friends in weeks and suddenly they chatted me but only to chat with my friend... 

So now i can see how he every day talks to my friends over Discord (like Skype)... And I'm not invited... Even if I joined I wouldn't understand what they were talking about, because I don't play cs:go that much...

Oh yeah, and nothing happend between me and my sleepover friend... We barely talk now.. He only talks with my friends..

But now I just hope he won't tell my friends all the stuff I told him... I really hope.. Because else I just lost my friends.. And will be all alone after the summervacation :(

 

-Nobody_Knows_Me

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