Get Out

by , Sunday July 9, 2017

Get Out

friends are good but i need a fucking psychiatrist

I need to get out of the house more. I need to spend more time with friends. Normally I love my peace and quiet in pure solitude. But lately, the silence and lack of social interaction is driving me crazy. I start overthinking. I start psyching myself out. This little voice in my brain known as my anxiety is planting things in my thoughts that I'm not even sure are truth or lies. This only happens the most when I'm left alone. I have no one to talk to. No one to distract me. I don't say no when my friends ask me to hang out with them because the company of friends and loved ones make the thoughts go away. The dumb conversations we all have that make me laugh cause that voice of anxiety to shut the fuck up. I forget about those thoughts when I'm with my friends. I can't stand being stuck in this house. I need to get out. I need these thoughts to get out. Get out of my fucking head. They're driving me insane. My friends don't. They don't make feel like I have to repeat "Get out" to myself over and over. I don't have to drown their voices with other voices or music. Someone get me to a fucking psychiatrist.  

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