getting ready for the outside world

entry 2

almost there

Now it's almost time for me to leave and actually get out there. The last time I wrote was when I was still in high school, but now I'm graduated and facing reality. The first thing that pops into my head is, "Will I survive the real world?" or "Do I actually like what I have in plan for myself?" It's scary to think about, but it is what it is. Also, it's scary to think about how all of my friends are going to be in one area while I'm at least three hours away from the closest one, and what's even worse is that my mother will be following me. It isn't that bad that she is because then I wouldn't be alone, but when it comes down to it I'd rather have my friends then someone who is strict and has been making me go down her path all my life and not once letting me be free.


Apart from being away though, I'm scared of stepping into adulthood because as soon as this side ends, responsibilities will be flowing in like crazy and I don't think I can handle it. Also, I will be needing to worry about new things that I've never had to deal with before. This comes in with the parents not letting me do things that normal kids could do, such as chores and taking on a job. Now my parents are regretting these things, which I am grateful, but there is not dial to turn back time. So, what's done is done and now I'm having to deal with all the new things that I am going to need to learn by myself.


Aside from all the negativity, I am excited to say that meeting new people that have similar likings as me is the one thing that I am excited about. Also, being able to finally focus and study what I am wanting my career to be based off from is amazing. It will be a long and difficult road since it is a hard course, but I believe that with the right motivation I can acheive it. So, being there will be an amazing experience, but until then I am almost there and I hope that my excitment keeps on turning positive.


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