What happen? Oh.. wait.. what?

by , Wednesday December 21, 2016
 What happen? Oh.. wait.. what?

 

 

Did we do something stupid?

We just broke up... We are hanging out a lot.. We are texting each other everyday... What are we doing?

Omg... I broke up with him 2 weeks ago... Now we're having sex... I love him... I hate that I had to break up with him.. (He wasn't happy in the relationship, but didn't wanted to hurt me, by breaking up with me)... Now we are texting each other and later today I'm going to his place just for sex. He keeps reminding me that this is without feelings... Without feelings... Just sex...

I'm so.. I have two feelings... One loves him and just wants him.. another feeling just want the first feeling to disappear and have sex.

Right now I'm listening to the last one...

He said I couldn't tell people about our relationship... But I have to... I told my nearst friends... They think it's a bad idea... It will only take me longer time to get over him... I know.. But I don't want to lose him as a friend... They say I shouldn't text him and just give it some time... But I'm scared of that... I'm scared he will disappear as a friend too then...

So now.. we're friends with benefits... I don't even know what it is.. I will see.. Later today...

I think I will just go to his place, he will find a movie and then I will go home again... Nothing in it... Like he says... No feelings..

I can't see this ending good... It's not like he suddenly gets feelings for me again... (Even if I wish it)...

He texted me yesterday that if we were friends with benefits, then he just wanted to say he was fine with me dating and having sex with other guys.... I'm not okay with that.. And I really don't want him to have sex with other girls... But I just said it was fine and he was allowed too... So now the "friends with benefits" starts for real.. I just doesn't have anybody to talk to about it... My friends doesn't want to hear about it... They already said it's a bad idea and I will just get hurt...

 

So RIP me...

 

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