My Heart and Other Black Holes
a book review written by Molly Looby
“Physics nerd Aysel and popular, handsome Roman are practically strangers, but they’ve been drawn into an unthinkable partnership. In one month’s time, they plan to commit suicide – together.
With the deadline getting closer, something starts to grow between them – a feeling Aysel never thought she would experience. It seems there might be something to live for, after all – but is Aysel in so deep she can’t turn back?”
This book is something else. That’s all I can say for certain. I’m worried this review is going to come off the wrong way, but bear with me.
It was a slow start, but I’m almost certain it’s supposed to be that way. It lacked urgency, which of course mirrored Aysel’s depression in a very poignant way. The descriptions of depression were powerful and heartbreaking, and I think this book could help break down some barriers.
But it’s a tough read. It’s very heavy (not literally) and difficult to read too much in one go. It also made me feel isolated and sad in a way I haven’t felt in a long time. For this reason, it was a struggle to pick up because I didn’t want to feel too strongly what Aysel was feeling.
The characters were believable and realistic, and I could see them both clearly in my head. Aysel’s sarcastic comments were often pretty dark but they made me laugh – sometimes inappropriately. The book is filled with a layer of black humour. However, it’s also filled with a lot of beautiful thoughts.
There’s not much else to say. I’m not sure how much I enjoyed it. I’m not sure what star rating to give it. This book made me feel things in a way no other book has. But I’m not sure if that’s a good thing.
My Heart and Other Black Holes is so heavy it makes you feel like drowning, but it is well worth keeping yourself afloat till the end.
4 out of 5 Movellas stars